money money money money
went yesterday to fairview and got my paycheck.. second last.. stupid manager schedualed me so that i have to go back again..argg
so i went with jaxs and petrina in jaxs cool new volkswagon, flick! haahah didnt do much shopping though.. actually none of us bought ANYTHING.. but enjoyable still.. im still thinking about my body shop strawberry mist.. hmm.. maybe i will go get it

I'm baaaaaaaaaack!!!!
jaxs fixed my blog, it is not longer retarded and now lets me post... yay jaxs

i have the most wicked friends in the world!!! yesterday on my birthday they came to surprise me with hugs and ballooons!!! a big boquet of colourfull balloons!! the night before, jaxs and i agreed that she would get me around 12-1230.. so i start calling her at 1145 to find out when she was coming. the phone keeps on ringing.. i call her cell. it too kept on ringing.. i called her a billion times. no answer. i thought, maybe shes on the toilet or something taking a shit.. but then she finally picks up her cell and says she was doing some errands for her mom.. i though thats was a little suspicious.. jackie getting up early to do errands for her mom when we could have done them after lunch?
i thought they would all be at the restaurant waiting for me or something.. so i later go upstairs to put on my contacts and mid hand-wash the doorbell rings.. i panic cause i know its jaxs coming to pick me up, and being the girl that i am, i am not ready.
i open the door and there is everyone!! sam, vanessa (who got up early with jaxs to get me balloons), lis, and jaxs and the bunch of balloons.. hahah i felt special (whoohoo!!)
we went to caseys where nicole met up with us later.. oh and i had to carry this big elmo ballooon that announced to the world that it was indeed my birthday as sam sang (and danced) to "who let the dogs out" in jaxs car while we all watched strange men laugh at her (i love sam, without her, life would not be entertaining)
sadly, after dinner i had to go to work while the party continued at vanessa's... arg.. its okay i had free minutes all day on my phone so i called lis and went shoppig with her until it was 4. all in all a very VERY good day! to top it off, it was my last day at japan camera and i got hugs and my photo taken by gay men and sabrina (who is also wicked) got me her famous dip with vegetables (my digestive tract thanks her) and cake and bubble juice.
thank you guys, i love you soooo much!!

AHHHHH
first jaxs votes me off the survivor island then she kills my blog comments!!
they will be back later on this week.. when i redo my blog..

im freeeeee!! well almost
this weekend at work was pure hell.... it was only me and sabrina, which is really fun, except there was lots of work. saturday morning, we come and and set up.. then about 15 minutes after we turned it on, we hear a frantic beeping from the machine. we thought that the control strip we sent in was stuck or something so i go to look.... i start smelling something funny. i was gonna tell sabrina that soemthing was funky smelling when i realized it was coming from the machine and there was this sudden big cloud of smoke. i stand there like an idiot going : "uhhh" and a guy from the front finally tells me to trun off the power.. he comes and investigates and sparks start flying at him...we called my manager and we had to turn off the electricity to the whole store.. we stood in darkness until we got security.. my manager says i poured the water in too fast... sabrina and i think that she just want something to blame the mess on.. how can i pour water too fast??? saturday was hectic even though there was one less machine to operate.. then the priniting machine broke downa nd we had to call someone in the japan camera downtown to help us.. were such losers..
today wasnt so bad.. i printed all day.. we were actually on time with out one hours, unlike saturday when we were asking for three hours.. hahaha, and people are still willing to pay the one hour price interesting huh?

perhaps the only thing that kept me going was knowing that i only had 2 or 3 shifts left to go.. just tomorrow and im gone!! finally!!

sign my guestbook!! each and everyone of you!

the gay guys at work are the best.. when one of them dances and sings to the backstreet boys and wiggles his bum, and another checks out pictures of a man who he claims "has very good genes" with you (although i insisit his cousin is wayy better looking), and the other sits there with his big eyes laughing at the crazyness, you know its a good night

the world is ending
im worried.. and for thoseof you who know me, you know this is a regular thing...
i was thinking.. maybe i took too much on this year too early without realizing that i may not be able to do it all.. im sorry to get everyone down with my back to school bad mood... but i just gotta say this stuff. and dammit, its my blog
i got two oacs next year.. which means i really gotta work at them. one is chemistry.. which is going to be interesting..cause grade 11 chemistry was non-sensical enough (especially at the begining) i cant remeber anything that i have learned two months ago.. i dont know how to bond.. i cant name the stupid molecules.. and then theres law.. im hoping that somehows deoliveira teaches it.. cause paterna is gone right,, but i probably will end up with cafiso, and that is why im scared. i have SAC which i didnt think was really anything lat year.. but with melanie as the president ans the new reforms coming this year, it might be more of an effort than i had anticipated.. and now i got a job,., im hoping for few hours.. but want themoney... and i dont know what my course are!! should it be avn or physics?!?!?! i dont want either!! but must pick one to get my six courses.. ahhhh.. i feel so overwhelmed.. but then i thinkof sam with her crazy soccer scheduale (both at school and league) and think of her during the last month of school with her work and her soccer scheduale.. and it gives me hope.. but then again shes been doing this crazy-ness for years and im still a dribble-nosed rookie

this week has flewn by.. i had my first traiaing day on tuesday and my secod one today.. they were incredibly boring.. we learned "how to be friendly", "how to treat other with respect" and how to have a "passion to engage" we did go over the products too but not much could be done without the product and the store in front of you.. next tuesday i have to somehow make it down to eglingtion and warden by 10 for actual in store traiing..went home ont he bus today and noticed that there were three other old navy employees.. one i sat next to cause we took the bus together tuesday as well.. and when she got off her stop, there were still the other two..they started to talk to me and we found out we all got off the same stop.. one of the boys lives really close to me too..on casemore...so we walked home together until we got to the cat walk, and went our separate ways.. it was sooo nice to have someone understand the ghetto-ness of our area.. and we talked about all the fires and car accidents and how much the streets smelled while it was raining (it was spitting at the time and we knew the smell would be upon us soon) and i told him baout the dead mice i see in front of a certain house on my way tot he bus stop.. the shortness of the traiing and the people make up for the boring-ness of the training.. but it beats japan camera... only 3 or 4 more shifts to go!!! yayy!!!
i am incredibly tired and need some sleep i took a napon the couch when i got home.. jaxs is crossed with me.. cause our phones kept disconnecting (or i couldnt hear her for some reason) and i kept calling back and i think she was mad cause i was disrupting her.. and since i sensed she was mad, i got mad too..(life is very complicated with me and jaxs) all i wanted her to do was see if there were any t shirts left at american eagle in markville...i am going to buy myself a birthday present tmorrow.. and not a little birthday present.. a big expensive one.. hahahaha
i love me

yeah, how com emy blog times dont work?? its not 6:15!! ahhh.. jaxs did you mess it up the last time you were on my template?? someone fix it???

whats the deal with this pop life?
yesterday i got home at one in the morning.. not cause i was partying , or having fun.. but because i stayed at work developing pictures.. okay it wasnt all that bad cause the store was empty except for me sabrina and deidra.. and we played nsync all night and i learned all the words to "dirty pop" hahah or so i think, cause no matter how much i hear a song and think i know it, i always seem to screw it up,.. you can ask jaxs..
my sincere apologies to sam for not showing up on friday to see her and get sundaes... we were really planning to go.. but we at the last minute went to vanessa's house and stayed there the afternoon playing the "Survivor" boardgame until like 4 o'clock.. and we couldnt just leave in the middle of it.. well technically i could have cause JACQUELINE voted me out!!! so yeah unless you wanted us to come after you shift and hunt you down on your way walking back home...
im still holding your lipgloss hostage!!! *peers behind me, where i have hog-tied the pink grapefruit-flavoured lipgloss to a chair and gaged it with duct tape* we'll see eachother soon.. im off next week from wednesday on.. until the 31st
we better ALL do soemthing then!!!! *glares at everyone*

does anyone wanna come with me for a hair cut.. i wann get my hair relayered cause i just noticed it does a funny v shaped thing at the back, and the layers are all grown out and nasty.. someone please??

whoohoo
i have plans.. it feels good when you have plans.. friday: during the day, nicole, jaxs, sam, petrina, vanessa, hopefully bev and chrisitne and maybe a few others will spend a day eating and shopping.. such girlish fun!!! then in the evening a BBQ at marks..will go early to help set up.. yayy mee!!!
wont be on until sunday.... tomrrow working, friday out, saturday working.. hmm maybe ill be on saturda night..well see

Score!!! my new comments thing works!!!!
now leave coments!! everyone!!!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Happy 17th birthday petrina!
so today was the day i quit japan camera.. i was soo scared to do it as i came into work.. but then my manager started to bitch about the two days i requested off from work next week, and i decided that now was a good time to spring it one her.. so yeah, i told her, and she seemed hurt, but got over it quickly.. i didnt give her the letter until just before she left..

then after sam dorve me to montannas to celebrate petrinas brithday! everyone was there.. okay maybe not everyone... but it was soo funny.. i dont think anyone could possibly have more fun with a few jam jars, tin cups, knives and a napkin...hahah bev.. i love bev!
jaxs where the hell were you? i tried calling you a million times.. and your phone was off.. are you dead in a ditch somewhere?

how the hell do i write a resignation letter????
why must i sugarcoat: " bye denise i hate you and this stupid store! and you can kiss my big fat ass as i walk to my new job, with my higher paycheck and closer location! so ha! try yelling at me now bitch!" ???(denise is my manager of course) but alas, i must be nice, cause one day i might need her as a reference, and im thinking that if i say the above, she might not give me one..
so here i go.. trying to write a resignation letter, even though i have no idea what im doing, and i know i will probably be laughed out of the store once i give it to her because it will not look or sound anything like one.. but im doing it... cause i must quit and i wont spend a single day more there than i have to
geez, quitting is so much trouble, no wonder people dont do it more often

wow... i cant believe christine has a thing with her dad too!! hahah we rock.. however, i unlike her, have developed a hate.. wait.. i wouldnt call it a hate.. how about a strong dislike?

aphids are easily smashable
yesterday i got off at 6 and took the bus home.. i walk out of fairview and walk down to the sheppard bus stop.. i stop at the light and look down.. my white shirt was spotted with tiny bugs everywhere.. i brush them off with a look of disgust and embarassment.. i had no idea why all these bugs chose to die on me, and no one else..

i get off the bus at my stop and walk home.. again, i look down and notice my shirt and pants are full of the little things.. its like when you walk the bugs crash into you and die!! i was beging to worry.. do i have B.O.? was it my perfume? it was totally gross.. but i was relieved this morning that it wasnt just me, there was a whole epidemic of bugs.. phew!

im going to montreal this weekend for the long holiday... be back tuesday.. but probably wont blog till wednesday.. wait, maybe if youre lucky, ill be on monday night.. ohh baby!! rowrr

BLING BLING
so this morning i wake up and watch tv and eat and stuff, you know just basically doing nothing since i dont have work till 4( which means i leave at 2:45) but then my brother gives me a message from yesterday morning(i was gone to work already when they called), it was old navy, and they wanted a final interview either today or tomrrow from 10-7.. i was like oh shit. . i have to go now before work cause tomrrrow im gone out of town...i was also like omigosh!! cause i totally was not expecting them to call.. since i thought i totally bombed my second interview.. so i run upstairs and shower and change and run out othe door.. i was totally psyching myself up for a on-on-one interview..cause it couldnt possibly be a group cause it would have had to be in a schedualed time.. so i walk in and the guy who the message said to ask for wasnt there, so i had to wait.,. that must have been the longest 10 minutes of my life.. i was going over all of my good qualities in my head and how i would go about explainging them.. the guy finally comes and pulls me to the side and says: "we would like to offer you a position at old navy" i was amazingly happy..how could he have said something which brought so much joy so nonchalantly? it took a few seconds for it to all sink in..so yeah i got my shirt, filled in my training times. and got out of there.. it felt like i was in an amazing un-popable bubble of happiness. i went to find julie at walmart to tell her and buy a new hairbrush (my old one is in two pieces.. i dont know why)

but my bubble was i guess, not so un-popable.. my dad came to pick me up from work, and i told him with this big grin on my face about my new job.. i could tell that he wasnt happy.. he asked: "so what about the library" and i said im gonna tell them i got a job at old navy!! he was not happy.. he had before told me that it would be better if i got the library job, rather than the one at old navy.. so i knew now that he wasnt happy with my choice of work.. he wouldnt tell me why,..somthing about getting more life experience at the library.. but i mean how much life expoerience would you get from shelving books??? i think a retail job would look wayy better on a resume..you could be mute and deaf to work in a library.. there is no showing of social skills...or even an understanding of anything more than how to put objects in numerical order
so eventually it turned into an arguement about whether or not i should write a resignation letter (he says yes, i say its just a stupid first job) and how im shutting doors.. when i kept on refusing to waste my time with a resignation letter.. he gave me this whole speech about how i never listened to him and how there were so many times in the past that i didnt when i should have.. and how he could never tell me to do anything, and merely just suggest things for me to do, and have me not listen ,,i told him yes, you cant tell me what to do, and you never will be able to.. yes, there were times when i should have listened to you, but because i didnt, it may have been bad, but i had a new life experience.. so therefore, it was good that i went through it..we sat in the car for the rest of the ride in silence, while i thought : FUCK.. we havent talked for years... and now that things are actually getting better.. youre making me not want to deal with you at all... really.. if this is how youre gonna be when we get along, i dont want to have anything to do with it, cause things are so much better when were ignoring eachother (well at least more peaceful)

i hate how when you feel so good about something, fathers feel like they have right to shoot you back down.

be back to blog and sign guestbooks tomorrow... im freezing down here right now..
going to montreal for the weekend maybe?

vince carter baby
i got picture of vince carter...REAL ONES... i stole them from work.. well technically they were "paper waste" and were going to be thrown out anyways..

if you guys decide to do something the weekend vanessa comes back, scheduale it for the friday!! cause im working saturday, and since im quitting, my boss wont let me change my scheduale around

TA DA
i have a guestbook now!!! sign it !!!! SIGN IT!!!

on the nugget
i was thinking the other day, while on the nugget.. that the nugget bus was sooo much a part of peoples lives in my neighbourhood.. without it, we would be stranded, or have to take three busses just to get to scarborough town... i noticed that it was weird that everyone called it THE nugget.. instead of just nugget...
example:
boy 1: "what bus do you take home?"
boy 2: "THE nugget"

people dont call brimley, THE brimley!!
boy 1: "what bus do you take home?" (he likes to ask this question)
boy 2: "THE brimley"
didnt that sound weird?

your gravol worked wonders jaxs.. but unfortunatly, it didnt help my interview..
saw matt, yoyo and mark after my interview.. they went to walmart with me to get jaxs an air freshener for her car..
its ugly jaxs.. but i want you to hang it.. or throw it somewhere so that it doesnt smell anymore.. its blue, to match your car.. and in the shape of a leaf!! hahahaha

yes, i know my blog looks ugly.. jaxs was fixing it for me, and she began to play around with it, and eventually, everything got fucked.. so i will fix it, just probably not anytime soon

i hoped you all missed me
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAXS!!!!
did you have a good day? of course you did! you were with me!. well sort of....
today i had work and jaxs came to get me.. i bought her a birthday lunch.. since we werent going out for dinner... after jaxs (who is the most wonderful person ever!) drove me to my interview at woodside library... and stayed there, so she and i could go hang out at her house after.. at 4:45 i had to leave her house for another interview at old navy... it was my second one, and it didnt go well.. it was a group interview.. me, and 8 other people.. he went around and asked us each a different question..the first one, he took notes on this sheet of paper.. and the second set, he didnt write anyhting.. which made me wonder.. so yeah i doubt they'll be calling me back.. but theres still hope in the library i guess...
last friday was the best day at work ever!!! i dont think anything can top it.. except maybe next next saturday...friday night, me and sabrina were the only two in the back the whole night.. and even in the front, the people doing the selling were all young people too.. so we turned up the music, and talked.. it was a very slow night and me and sabrina started to gossip about everyone who worked there.. (well only the adults) and about how we both have secret plans to leave... i even ate and drank while i was printing, so i didnt have to use my break.. it was wicked.. next friday night the same and next,next saturday..
i cant believe they trust us that much..yikes
yes i realize that i sound stupid. and really, its not big deal.. but now that ive been working.. every little good thing is a big deal.. cause they are so few and far between..

i just came on with intentions to ONLY read blogs, cause i am very tired, but still feel the need to catch up with all of your lives... i have missed all of you.. anyways.. a while ago, jaxs was telling me how churchie signed her guestbook, and we debated whether we should believe it is actually mr church, or some stupid person posing as him.. but in the end, we concluded that it probably was him.. then just now, i was reading nicole's guestbook, trying to find mark's website (cause i am intertested in what he has to say about a special someone.. hehee) and i see that churchie signed her guestbook too... then i come to the realization that he probably reads all of our blogs.. whichis kinda creepy when you think about it... he could be reading this right now, and now know that i think its creepy that he reads our blogs..
you wonder why he knows everything about everybody??? probably cause when its late at night and he has nothing to do, he comes on the net and stalks all of his students through their web pages

it was a great party... a few games of basketball... conversations with people you havent seen since school ended, moonlit bike rides (well more like streetlamp-lit), pop and pizza.... that is until the party starts to die down, and people begin to leave, and there is only a small group left in the basement watching a rented movie in the dark.. and you look around and all the other girls are snuggling with their boyfriends, or maybe soon-to-be boyfriends, and you realize that you are the only girl without a guy wrapped around yourself... and you continure to look around and realize that the other boys in the room who arent taken, arent taken cause their gross.. and you sigh to yourself cause you know that with this group of people, you will never be a part of one of those couples that makes the single girl jealous..
aand all that you can do is make a mental note to find boy toys in other social circles...

tomorrow: shopping with vanessa and jaxs.. and not to town centre.. NOOOO were going to markville cause jaxs got wheels baby!! hahaha i am a loser i know.. then matts surprise party.. please come jaxs!

my blog reading time has been drastically cut down now that nicole doesnt blog and sam is away this week... why did you both leave me??
nicole, if youre still alive and not dead in some sort of sewage drain, come back on and leave a tiny message, oh yeah and we still have to do something with our birthday thing.. secretly i know its probably not going to happen, but dammit im gonna try my bestest!!
sam!! sam!!! come back too.. and tell me of all youre naughty, naughty adventures

i feel like a prisoner being hunted down
today is my day off... at 11:37 am my work calls me.. of course i secretly have a feeling they want me in today, and refuse to pick up...
less than 5 minutes after, they call again.. again i dont pick up... hoping that they will get the message..
10 more minutes and they call again..i get my brother to tell them that i wasnt home.. 7 mintes later they call again.. and again my brother tells them im not home.. if someone tells you that who you are looking for is not home, what makes you think that in 7 minutes they will be? they say to have me call back as soon as im home. its urgent..
i refuse to go into work.. after a conversation with jaxs on the phone, i hang up and instantly, the phone rings again, it is as if they knew...
it is work again, and my brother AGAIN says im not in... and AGAIN they say to have me call them... they call two more times after that and finally tell my brother that they need me in, so get me to call back, after they have asked him questions such as where i went, when i will be back and so on..im not a fricken prisoner on parole here.. when i get the day off, i expect to be off.. not be on call for you..
what if someone was sleeping? what if we needed the phone to saty open? who calls 4 times within a half an hour and then 4 more times during the day?
who doesnt understand:"she;s out, i dont know when she'll be back, yes, she'll call you when she gets home?"
really now.. am i not allowed to take the day off and assume that i WILL be off, and not hounded by crazy phone calls.. ive worked three days in a row so far for 7 hours each and you want me to work today? making it 5 days in a row? is this really a part time job here?
i swear if i go in tomrrow and they get mad that i wasnt home to go to work, i will seriously leave.. and not because of only this.. a lot of stuff has been bothering me about work.. for instance how my manager insists that i come in at 830 when the store opens at 10, even though she knows it takes an hour and a half to even get to work.. arggg..

*witty title here*
so i got my first paycheck the begining of last week.. it was much, since it was only for my first two shifts... after tax, i had $88.95. And who knew that money would go so fast... hmm.. i spent about 55 on clothes and bras.. and another 10 on a journal, and i have about 15 bucks left.. oh by the way, i also got money from my aunt while she was here, and somehow i spent that too.. who knows how... im dangerous with money.. hmmm
so if you wanna do anything, i cant do it till late next week cause hopefully i'll have another paycheck by then.. *sigh*
so working basically sucks.. i want to leave already... ive been doing a lot of thinking lately (I have lots of time to think while travelling on the bus for an hour and a half going to or from work) and ive come to the conclusion that i cant commit.. yes.. what women have complained about for centuries about men, is something i too cannot do...
i'm always looking for something better... i cant stay in one job.. the second day i was there, i already wanted to leave..
i cant even commit to a damned halter top for goodness sakes (long story, which i feel too stupid to actually tell)
i have been plotting for some time now how im gonna tell my manager that i want to leave.. its evil of me to go out and find a beter job, now that i actually have some work experience.. not much mind you.. about three weeks worth.. but thats almost a month... i'll just tell my new employer that me and my boss got into an arguement about the chemicals and health and safety hazards or something like that, which led to a bad breakup of our employee/employer relationsship, which i why i left so early and also do not have her as a reference..
good plan huh? it should be cause ive been thinking so much about it..
gap is hiring at town... im dropping off my resume on thursday before work..why? cause i am just THAT desperate to get out..

lately at work. ive been having to come in early (like 830 early) cause she has to teach me all this new stuff (which is partly why i hate work so much).. i get so mad, cause secretly i know its pointless for her to waste my time and hers cause i will be gone by the end of summer (hopefully!! *crosses fingers*) i just feel like shouting : i dont want to come at goddamn 830 and wake up at 645 to do so cause im fricken out of here in three weeks (hopefully)..

does anyone know if the old navy and walmart has opened at town yet? i havent been there for ages!

i got a belt for $2.88 today..
one good thing about working at the mall: you catch all the sales
one bad thing about working at the mall: you catch all the sales

on the nugget
so today as i was coming home, on my infamous NUGGET bus.. and i hear these two boys talking behind me.. and i keep on hearing my name whispered.. kinda ignore it, thinking "oh lots of people have my name"
suddenly, one of the guys says "andrea!"
i turn around to see them try to look the other way, trying not to look at me... and there i am being the nerd that i am with my head turned back looking at the two of the trying to figure who it was... i think one of them was shallun from bede..remeber him jaxs? but i have no idea why he would remeber me, since the one year he was there, we never said anything, never knew eachother, so i doubt it was him.. some stalker from ward maybe?

jason: "so andrea, are you ready to babysit us?"
today was a fairly good day at work.. it wasnt the best, but it is the best i;ve had so far. Thank God my mom is off and drove me to wrok today. i had to be in at 830 and would have had to get up at 6:15 to take the bus!! ahh.. i love my mom, and i owe her dearly for waking up early just to chauffeur me around. So despite the ride, i was completely stressing. cause yesterday (which i also had to show up at 830) my manager taught me how to set up everything in the morning.. all the machines have to be put back together and tested before the day can start. it ususally takes about 1/2 an hour, but for trainees like me, it takes an hour.. which is why i was there so early. So today i was kinda getting tested on how much i remebered, i was having a mini heart attack as i drew closer to work.. so yeah, you know that new hired boy? well turns out today was his first day afterall. and i was so gald he was there. someone to talk to, and also, i didnt have do my set up fast cause my manager was teaching him along the way... so it gave me time to read over y notes and think about what i was going to do next...
today wasnt a very busy.. the least one hour developing since i started working.. and then after i came off my break, (i only had two hours of work left) the machine which prints the pictures jammed, and therefore, we had to slow down on preparing all the film, cause they were completely piling up.. also, after about an hour, we had to stop taking in one hours.. so basically nothing was coming in , and i spent the last two hours of my shift, walking around tidying things and putting slide negatives into these plastic sheets... the new boy had to work with the technician to take apart the printing machine and do something with it in the back.. im so happy i wasnt involved in that.. hahaha
the only thing bad about my day? i had to mix chemicals like 5 times.. but 4 of them were at the same time, so i dint have to wash up and everything
perhaps the best thing: thrifty;s is having a major spring clearance sale.. i got my halter and two t shirts.. one for work, and one for play.. i like the, , theyre stretchy.. i want the purple or blue one.. hmmm
im beginging to think that those thriftys girls see me too often and are wondering if i am stalking them
tonight: babysitting my cousins while my aunt and uncle have a romantic "date"

hmph
a new trainee got hired today.. so i wont be the only stupid one around japan camera.. but he's starting wednesday, the one day im off.. so i cant watch him screw up to make my own ego feel better (yes, i know it is bad, but anything to boost my self esteem is good) wait a sec, what if he learns everything faster and can do everything better than me?? hmm.. that wont look good..
and no, hes not cute... okay, but not something to hunt down or anything... (hahah i knew some of you were wondering)
picking up report cards with jaxs thursday.. anyone else wanna come? for lunch? i gotta be at work at 2 though.. but im free after 6

work sucks when all you seem to do is screw up... someone almost got the wrong pictures because of me..
i tried to ask my maager for a couple of saturdays off to spend with my relatives from out of town, and she almost bit my head off... she said she would make an exception for me.. i wonder how she;s gonna take it when i want to leave..
when my family leaves, i want to go out..help me.. someone drive me to work?

what i hate the most is mixing chemicals, not only do you have to wear goggles, an apron, and yellow dishwashing gloves (yes, picture me and laugh), everything is disgusting,..including the stuff you have on... chemicals are too much pressure, if i mess it up, am am surely fired..after the manager taught me about chemicals, she handed me a three inch thick binder and told me that if i ever come in contact with any, to look it up and see what the side effects and symptoms are (not a good sign at all)
i had to eat lunch alone today,, i felt akward..like the whole world was staring at me, laughing.. didnt eat much though.. i think the chemicals made me nauseous.. hmm.. plan: to lose 15 pounds by end of summer fromt he noxious fumes of photography chemicals..hahaha,, new diet anyone? i dont think it'll work if i fill myself up with ice cream after..mmm plantations tonight with sam and jaxs and lis?

so i enter the dim lit mall and discover hoards of old people exercising.. i panic, cause i don’t know where to go or what to do for half an hour,.. and decide to go and "freshen up" in the ladies room.. turns out, its locked.. the food court is packed with old people and it just felt too awkward to sit among them.. alone.. in my box of scared-ness..so i find a bench and pretend to rifle through my purse in search of some illusive object that i just cant find..
five to 9 i go down to japan camera.. the security gate is still drawn over the store.. like a force field,... i know.. i look in.. no one seems me.. i wait..
i was begining to worry that they would thing that i was late for work
finally a blond woman comes in and lets me in
I walk in to the back and try to look cheerful and friendly, which is actually hard if you are scared and intimidated by everyone
So I get started, and im there with my notepad (my manager told me bring one, I bring it cause I thought it looked cool) and I am incredibly overwhelmed..*sigh*
I screwed up so many things.. and I hate it when people notice it and tell you.. even though they say it in the nicest way, it still makes you feel like your two inches tall.. what I hate even more, is when you know you did something wrong and try to hide it or correct it, and your waiting to see if anyone notices,.,.such stress..hahaha..

DAMMIT
i had written this incredibly long blog about my first day at work, but then lightening came, and the electricity went off.. Fuck.. so here i am trying to recapture the passion that was my first blog. imdoing it in parts, just in case..
so today i get to fairview half an hour early (seems like a trend is starting huh) even after having a heart attack on the bus.. well not literally.. who woul dhave guessed that the shepard express bus doesnt stop at fairview?.. i was trying desperatly to figure out how far don mills was to the stupid mall.... i got off the bus and realized it was that far, basically just crossing the street and through the underground parking.. however, the closest entrance was sears and i had to walk around a whole frickin corner of the mall to find a mall entrance..

ouch
i think im getting ablister.. i walked all day today in heels.. sandal heels. i tried to look sexy and mature and tall, but i guess it didnt work..
there are two patches on my foot, where it loks like the skin came apart from my foot, but the skin is intacts.. im worried that the interstitial fluid ive been hearing about in bio is gonna collect in there and make a blister.. i dont want it to look like adams ear, so im pressing down on those two patches

ang is sooo hired
so today i had a 5:30 interview at Gymboree in Fairvirew. its a kids clothing store.. well even though i didnt feel like it, and i knew i wasnt going to get hired, i decided to go anyways...
i got to fairview a half an hour early so decided to go find JAapan camera cause i heard from a friend that they were hiring..i walk in a realize that everyone who worked there who was under 25 was from ward... there was sabrina, and her sister deidra, denise and andrea ong.. so im waiting for the manager, which seems to take ages.. and she finally talkes to me.. it was going fine.. no major questions..she asked if i was a fast learner and if i had any work experience.. and deidra put in a good word for me (thank god for deidra) and she took me in to see the lab. i looked at my watch and realized there was oly like 15 minutes until my interview at Gymboree and she was still telling me about the lab.. i was wondering if she did that to everyone, or if she was hiring me, cause who would take all this effore if theyre werent hiring me?? so after i convinced myself i was hired, she handed me an application form and sent me outside to fill it out.. it kind of threw me off, cause i was thinking "i thought i was already hired?" haha.
so yeahi got the job.. and by the time i finished, it was 5:35 and i coulndt go to Gymboree late, and tell them.. hey i just got a job , so i didtched them.. in retrospect, im thinking it was the wrong thing to do.. but ah well...its not like theyre gonna post my name in all the malls telling everyone that i ditch interviews like a WANTED poster right? RIGHT?!?!?!?!
so im proud.. now i need a car.. dammit... i have to be there at 9 in the morning..ugh!!!
after the interview i had to go out and buy some white t shirts.. cause thats what i have to wear and the only white tshirt i have, has a big yellow duck on it... so yeah... t shirt and tanks are 2 for 15 (solid) and 2 for 20 (striped) at fairview smart set...
i am already making a mental list of what i want to blow my first paycheck on.. hmmm..
i hope im a fast learner, cause i told them i was and deidra seconded it. and i dont want to look stupid.. im feeling rather insecure.. but at the same time excited.. ahhh... what sam must have felt like
sam: now i have money to go out and eat lunch!! ahahahaha

couldnt resist
so yeah im back.. bring me out someone!! im drowning in little kids.. okay maybe not drowning, there are only two.. but get me out of here.. i need to make plans for next week as well... come on... i need to fill up my weekdays next week... any offers??

my aunt, who is chinese, likes it here in toronto... she says she finally feels like she belongs (meaning that there are a lot of chinese people here, as opposed to the few in montreal).. when theyre here, all she wants to eat is chinese food, why? because she feels deprived of it, since to get chinese food in montreal, good chinese food, you have to go to chinatown.. and thats too much trouble with two young kids,...and she enjoys our malls, stores and grocery stores here.. why? cause groceries are cheaper here, especially fruits and she gets a kick out of all the hello kitty stuff she can get fairly cheaply here..(the hello kitty craze is just starting amoung the white people in montreal, and the stuff costs a fortune..since there is so little supply, and increasing demand)...
but of course since i live in toronto, nothing is new, and nothing is amusing, but i am forced to go to all these chinese malls..(ie:pacific mall) *yikes* and walk around looking at san rio stuff.. and you know how comfortable i am when im surrounded by chinese people.. me and my white uncle.. look around making fun of peole who look fobby... and quiver when we see a herd of them coming.. so maybe its not a total waste of time.. hahahaha
*note: since i am chinese, i have every right to make fun of my own race... black comics do it all the time.. so ha!!

sharpies are stinky
so my family is down from montreal... they've been here since only saturday.. but it already feels like its a long time.. thats not a good thing is it? I love my cousins.. they look so white and perfect.. they have light brown eyes and brown hair, and can speak french wayy better than i ever could even though they are only 5 and 7. sigh... i wish i could speak french..but im not willing to learn.. thats sort of like the saying you wanna have the cake and eat it too.. hahahah..okay im a loser, its official,, i'll stop now..i am the weakest link. goodbye

sam
im not exactly sure why that book remind you of me, but since its so feministic (is that a word?) and bitchy, i enjoy it as well.. hmm bitchy.. is that why it reminds you of me?? lol
i read the exerpt and was kinda diappointed it was more of a forward or afterword, instead of an actual exerpt of the book.. if you do get it (with your large lick's paycheque of course) lend me it after.. ohh and bridget jones diary.. a nd while youre doing that, can i have my cd back?

Congratulations Graduates!!!!
Today i spent most of the day at home alone.. it was WONDERFUL!!! i turned up the tv so thatit could be heard throughout the whole house, and sang my heart out to much music!! and listend to dirty talk shows while brushing my teeth and cooking. it was in a way totally liberating.. oddly liberating, but still. then i shaves and showered and got ready for grad.. Grad was great! everyone looked bootylicious and yummy.. ahh... when chrisitne started to cry during her valedictorian speech, i did too.. i felt so stupid cause i was sitting near mrs dunn and mrs eustace and ms ste croix and jess and strange people and i didnt want them to see me cry.. although i really needed to.. it almost felt like i was graduating, cause a few of these people are so much a part of me.. these were the cool grade elevens that accepted me and my friends when we first came into the gifted room as nerdy/loser grade nines.. how i looked up to you guys....i even went through a phase (maybe still going through) where i wanted to be Andrea Chance.. she was science goddess to me, and she had a steady job at roots, which seemed glamourous at the time, and now that im in grade eleven, i still cant achieve what she has at my age. *sigh* i got to see everyone's awards and stuff before you got them.. i knewexactly who was an honours award or whatever.. hahah i feel so powererful!! hahaha... adam, i enjoyed those faces you made.. you were like the only one not too nervous to make eye contact and get their mind off of not tripping on stage... oh and i hope you enjoy your 'present'..hahahah i went through them before, and i felt the urge to put post its with "censored" all over the dirty, dirty magazine!!! i cant believe i stood in line to pay for that thing! many pictures wiht many pretty people
now that grad is over, im at racs house.. talking about boy.. so must go.. hahaha boys!!

hello jaxs.. im here, im blogging,. about??? i dunno... i just saw your post at 12:11 and justr wanted to make my pressence known,. can you do me a big BIG favour?

comm is no longer empty, but i still feel lonely.. no one familliar to talk to.. just creepy chinese/asian oacs....one looks like he;s named mark.. wait, his name is allen clavo... and the other looks like a 'wong', and yet another,... he;s sporty.. see him a lot with orielle.... owen is here, but hes playing ping pong with galang...
ang=lonely and needy

it is only.. very lonely... i want to leave... where's jaxs??? off to find mcalpine...
vroom vroom vroom... grad tomorrow night... be here at 630 in the office... racs? sleepover?

so galang left the area, and me and jaxs were discussing why we thought he was so happy all of a sudden.. so we were coming up with reasons like:
"maybe his girlfriend did something nice for him" or
"maybe hes trying to be super happy, to cover up some sort of repressed bad memory"
but i think "maybe he got some last night"...eww hahaha that was sooo gross...
help.. galang just came out and showed us his dophin....wait.,. that sounded wrong,, a dolphin he found in the art office.. wait.. ah theres no helping it...

a day with jaxs
im at school right now.. watchng jaxs do the agenda... yay...fun....
laurie is gone to work.. she's nice and all, but its better not having her around so i can be stupid
galang seems to be high on something.. we came in and he seemed all happy... he was in the planet room and he comes sliding/striding (like sliding your foot as far as it can go in front of you and then sliding the back one as far in front as you can) towards us, with a green lollipop in his hand.. imagine how weird that looked, and he was wearing shorts and sandals, which made him look even more like a 8 year old boy..... eww i hate those sandals!! i dont think men should wear leather sandals... ewww..
jaxs says: "sushi in japan, use to think i was the man"
i think she;s high on something too... it must be the "comm air"... must run away before i fall victim to it as well

summer to-do list
~ hang out with vanessa more, because in a month she will be gone
~see sam more, cause we hardly ever see eachother..
~see nicole and christine and andrea and adam cause they will be gone forever... and take lots of pictures with them to keep as memories as the gifted people who made me feel cool to talk to in grade nine (cause they were old and in grade 11 and i was a loser)
~do big birthday bash with nicole, christine, jaxs, vanessa, and adam (and others of course) before vanessa goes away
~get healthy (sam, you have inspired me), actually maybe just eat healthier, cause i dont think i'll be doing any running, unless its running after an ice cream truck
~find a bathing suit... im thinking tankini.... but some say its good for my body shape, while others say it isnt.. its soo confusing (j. lo ass and thighs here, pre personal trainer)
~find a sun dress and wear it with lis to visit racs and lana at centreville
~do something with nicola...cause i havent done anything with her for so long, and summer school is coming and once again, work will consume her life
~go to one of sam's grown up drunken, make-out parties.. hahahaha
~find a job to pay for all the above things.. or a very generous sugar daddy...hmmm
~find a boy, unless the sugar daddy plan works out

will post more when ideas find me

hardy har har
tonight was my brother's graduation..... and i went.. and so did jaxs! yay jaxs!
they had the gym all decorated and everyone got medals and they had a slide show.,.. and it made me jealous that our grad wasnt as great.... we didnt put as much time and effort into it.. we didnt ALL get medals! the one bad thing that im glad we didnt have to do - sing! they all had to sing!!! three times as a group,, and my brohter sang with his friends, alone.. like in a groups of five boys... what a loser! saw lots of people from elementary.. a lot has changed, people arent as easy to talk to anymore, i guess we have all moved on...
teachers recognized me, its nice to know im not forgotten.. my grade one teacher even asked my brother where i was... she loves me, i know she does..hahahaha
sam: i think jaxs likes the thing we got for her that day at the mall,... she was wearing it!!! to attract boys?? hahahhaha
we also went through the school. we snuck upstairs and looked into all the dark classes and library.. it all seemed so large back then, i never realized how everything is really pretty small....is it cause ive grown, or is it that i've gained a new perspective on life? hmmm

we are family
so i just find out today that one of my aunts and uncles and their kids are coming from montreal for a visit..... next weekend.. ahh well.. they wont miss me for a couple of days, cause although i love them, there is only so much little kids i can take.. so someone, invite me out!!

each peach, pear plum...
today me and jaxs went grocery shopping..yes, you read right: grocery shopping. apparently, since jaxs has gotten her license, she has become her parents' grocery bitch... and today i came to tag along. i told my parents that i was going grocery shopping with jaxs, and they got all mad and said: why are you so eager to go grocery shopping with her when you dont ever want to go with me? actually my dad said that... why do dads never understand? he also said something else, but i wont say.. but he always manages to ruin things im looking forward to.
so we're at food basics and anyone can easily see, we are soo lost!!! we wander in, and you can tell we have no idea where things are or where we are going, cause we keep walking back and forth.. and we have NO idea how to pick apples and nectarines! we stand there picking ones up and showing them to eachother, waiting for some sign of approval or rejection from the other... jaxs likes to pick nectarines that are brown.
i had to get italian bread, that my father insisted should be "fresh". but i had no idea what fresh meant..he said you could feel it... so there i am in the bread aisle touching up all the loaves of italian bread.. not my idea of fun, i assure you. so there it is, our first official outing together - to food basics..

messages for all
since there is a lack of blogvoices, and i have stuff to tell all of you, i have messages for all:
jaxs: vanessa wants to out with us before she goes to get our thriftys 84 shirts, but town only has like 6 left, and most yellow when i went... would you be wicked and go to markville with us? we'll pay for gas!!!
oh and read sams cause the end is for you too!! about salem witch
sam: how was your first day of training? it sucks that you have to go all the way downtown, but really, you cant complain cause you have a job and a n income, so SHUT UP!!! oh yeah and you know salem witch?> one of the stars in it is kristy alley!! maybe not someone who we actually want to see, but it would have been wicked if we had pulled up, and she walked out of her trailer in her puritan costume.. also some guy...sir.. something something,, i dont know him, but he has a sir in his name, so therefore he must be important
christine: im sorry to hear about your stuff being stolen..but dont you have negatives of your prom pictures? if only i were taller, braver, more muscular, and somewhat intimidating - i would go find those punks and open a can of whoop ass..hahahaha
nicole: vanessa is leaving the end of july, so must do birthday bash before that..miss you, havent seen you or heard from you in a while... busy?

ive realized that being on SAC stinks.. correction, being a SAC secretary stinks. two meetings a week BEFORE school... i have to write up the agenda for each meeting and the minutes and attendance, and keep track of everyone, i'm basically the SAC whore, who has to babysit everyone, cause they cant take notes, and they cant do anything!!!
my only consolation :secretaries work very closely with treasurers, and adrian molder is treasurer *swoon*
BE JEALOUS!

hey i was reading christine's and nicole's blog... they hate kirsten dunst.. i thought i was the only one that hated her!! i dont even know why i hate her so, it wierd.. its like hyde, there is something dispising and abnormal about her, but you cant seem to put your finger on it..

a delicious day
today, i felt very teenage-y and grown up...
i went to school for a SAC meeting (you know, like all those people you see in movies/tv shows that are invilved in school) then i went to a party (also very teenage-y) and then i got a ride home, from not my parents, but from a fellow teenager!! ahhhh...

jaxs got her G2 today!!!! congratulations baby!! i was sooooo happy!!!! jaxs comes vroom vrooming to the party in her red volkswagon jetta, and she looked so cool!!! i came home without calling my parents, cause jaxs drove me!! i was the first to be driven by jaxs!!ahh!! *swoon* the whole time i was in the car, i had this massive grin on my face!! and i kept on going "ahhh" cause i was so excited!!! i couldnt believe my jaxs was so grown up, i must take a picture of her driving, but i';ll do it when her face gets better...
ahh im still all happy and tingly.. a very feel good night.

i love alana.... cause she invited me over *wink wink* and fed me chicken... she let me into her house.. and we had fun.. hahah lots of girl talk *wink wink again* hahahaha then she fell asleep, so i turned off the lights and the tv off, but then 15 minutes later she woke up and she had a mini freak out, cause suddenly everything was dark.. and then she cooked me eggs and fed me tamran balls (which im not a big fan of) and peanut brittle (which i am a fan of). Then shopping with lis,, hahah to pick a dress.. hot mama!! hahahaha

mos-qui-tos
i hate mosquitos... they suck.. i have two bites on my lower back... it looks like two nipples are emerging from my skin. they not even straight.. it looks like two crooked nipples. then on my left hand, there are three... one on my pinky, one in the middle of my hand, and one near the pit between my thumb and forefinger. you can draw a straight line connecting them, and have a diagonal line on my hand. why do mosquito bites look like either acne, or a strange rash? i have a strange rash on my left hand.

tram-pol-line
yesterday was tanya's party.. it was so fun..i talked to people i have never really talked to.. like john jalsevac and alberto... and i almost went for a ride in andrew's car,.... but alana and racs was going to, and i thought it would look funny if there was this white guy driving a car with 3 asian girls in it.... i said to them it would look "pimpy".. and richard went instead. the best part of tanya;s? the TRAMPOLINE!! that thing is fun with a F-U-N! especially with sheila bouncing with you to 80s music blaring in the background.. oh yeah sam, sheila wants you to go to her shin dig on saturday...i think its also a sleepover cause her parents are out for the weekend.. come sleep with me baby!! hahahaha... no, seriously, COME.. call me.. wait, i should call you.. here i go to call you..its ringing... and ringing.. hmm.maybe sam not home? guess not..call you later. yeah where the hell did i put your pager number.. dammit..

nicola once said to me: ang, you only like shows that have pretty people"
i of course have adamently denied this.. but today, i wonder.
today i was watching the movie Boys and Girls. you know the one with freddie prinze and clare forlanni? anyways, it was incredibly boring until freddie came back after a summer looking hot (like fire hahahaha) ..then the movie got interesting... so is it true? am i as shallow as nicola makes me sound?? or is it just a coincidence that the movie picked up when he got all sexy.. hmmm..

get ready to rumble
if you have read christine's blog, you would have noticed that she enjoys my blog *gush!!* unfortunatly, she enjoys sams blog as well ..(haha just joking.. its not unfortunate....er..yeah...) i feel like i am competeing against sam now for christine's affection.. and dammit i think im losing!
but seriously, i enjoy both of your blogs as well, and lately it seems you two are the only other people blogging *shoots daggars out of my eyes to all those other bloggers that dont blog* but sam, let get one thing straight here... DONT MESS WITH ME, CAUSE YOU"LL GET BURNED!! CHRISTINE"S MINE>>ALL MINE!! muahahahahaha! okay, who am i kidding, shes not all mine.. she found a boy..
sam, me and you: boy hunting this summer...

huh?
in response to jaxs' blog for june the 18:
MOVIE PYLONS? as opposed to what? television pylons??!?!?! hahahahaha... they were just orange pylons..im gonna remember thisone forever.. every time there's construction, i'll yell "hey look jaxs, movie pylons!!"

i am glad school is over, and now everyone can blog.. it makes me happy...however, jaxs still doesn't, which makes me mad...
heehee christine said my blog made her smile *beams with a silly grin on my face* i feel so important
i think its sad that i feel a need to be loved by everyone... when someone mentions my name why does it make me so happy? do i not feel loved enough?? what happens when i finally meet the boy of my dreams and smother him because i want him to tell me all the things he loves about me just to make myself feel better???i think i need a psychiatrist.

now that she's found them, she can't keep her hands off them
today was another day with the girls, doing what we do best - shopping!! We had to get an entire outfit for Jaxs for the athletic banquet. Im glad i wasnt there alone.. it would have killed me.. sam sue ping did most of the work, she seemed to be really into it. we went bra shopping.. jaxs got a bra.. i just like saying it just because i know it embarasses her so... when you see her ask her about it..and how we all violated her!! hahaha
it was the second day out with sam and her swedish caterpillar van. (i bet you guys are all jealous JEALOUS! i think i am being spoiled by the rides in her car...thanks sam for teaching me how to link. i am going link CRAZY!!

wheee
i applied at fairview thrifty's..theyre only looking for temporary help, which is actually perfect...
i hope i get it.. *crosses fingers and says a prayer to God*
i am the friggin poster girl for thrifty's..
i got a black halter.. i want to wear it
whos going to the athletic banquet?

dot comments
so i was feeling confident with my blog voices installing ability, so i went to find dot comments...cause blogging without people telling you stuff back just isnt the same.. GO TO BLOGVOICES.COM and go to the dot comments link...
i downloaded the thing and got the instructions... one problem..the instructions are wayyy more complicated than blogvoice's cut and paste this html .....
please help someone!!

We rock the party,rock the party come on...
It has been an amazing start to summer vacation! It felt so good last week to know i actually had some sort of plans for the first week free from school. But sadly, half of them are over with. Mike's party was okay. Nothing major happened, just nice to cathc up with people i havent talked to in a while cause everyone was stressing over school. Mike's parents are the nicest people in the world!!
Jaxs' thing was maaaaa-velous! It was a great day. First out shopping with lis. lots of girl bonding and shopping! we had fun at 10 for $10. Who knew you could get a sparky bracelet, a key chain, a backstreetboy book, a straw purse, a pair of fuzzy 'princess' dice, a necklace, and a pack of 'boy crazy' cards all for a buck each. Too bad sue ping missed those boy crazy cards!
There is just too much to write about so here comes one of those lists you often see in blogs like sam's and christine's.

I am incredibly happy that:
~I wasn't the reason someone left
~girls can talk for hours effortlessly
~i;m not the only one with evil thoughts and therefore have no reason to feel guilty
~sam drives a car..and a big van that reminds me of the Swedish catepillar from 'A Bug's Life'
~jaxs had her shin-dig
~lis didnt ditch me
~we went on our 'adventure' into the woods in search of the 'salem witch'
~jaxs asked the guy sleeping on the lawn chair what was going on
~lis got me stripey socks
~the a.c. in my house is finally on an i can actually sleep with pants and a blanket (as opposed to many sweaty nights with just shorts and my blanket strewn on the floor
~i feel so grown up when im with sam, when she drops me off and its late, and i have to use my key to get in and un-set the alarm cause everyone is sleeping.
~sam said its okay to cry when people say nice things because i do that all the time

I am sad (well not really) that:
~miranda did not have a good time and felt awkward, and i didnt care
~miranda has a boyfriend who is white and has blonde hair and probably has blue eyes
~sue ping couldnt come
~mosqito's can bite through jeans
~lis, sam, and jaxs still think i cried, even though i didnt, although what sam said was totally cry-worthy!

i can't seem to say enough, how amazingly wonderful it was...i want a whole summer FILLED with those nights. im still feeling the after effects
tonight: sheila's?

The Wheels on the Car Go Round and Round
Jaxs is getting her licence soon!!! ahhh i am bursting with excitement. Jaxs getting her licence, means rides for ang, and not having to leave at 7:45 for school anymore.....jaxs already has a car waiting for her in her garage.. well actually four cars waiting for her. she;s got a red one, a grey one, a green one, and the newest edition, a blue one!! I am soooo happy for jaxs!!! ahhhh!! maybe i should go boo my appointment now... or not..

when someone has a party, you go.
but if this party is in malvern, suddenly everyone is too far to come.
but we come to you dammit, why dont you come to us?

ruby red grapefruit juice is good
one more day of school yay!! i cant believe this year is over with already.. i mean, i do want the break, but this year seemed to pass by really really quickly...i'll be making an appearance tomorrow on the last day, with a camera in hand.
my TA is leaving!! ahh how i will miss mozzone... *sniff sniff* this is not any fair, and although love her, i still wish that someone evil and sinister tries to steal her new position so that she has no choice but to come back to me.. a TA is supposed to keep you for 5 years until you are ready to leave, like bread out of an oven... if you take the bread out too early, it just sits there, a pile of raw dough. i am not done!!! bake me some more!! i too will just sit there like a pile of raw dough with my new ta (which by the way could likely be one fo those hated student teachers we had before...yuck)

remember when i said i wasnt motivated to drive cause i dont have a car? well i've been taking the bus in these 30 degree days, and i thnk i have finally found my motivation to get my licence-to rid of my need to wait at overcrowded, hot bus stops with people smelling of a variety of different B.O.s. but then i remeber my mom's car doesnt have air conditioning... crap.

i am not your math whore
so im sitting in the caf with sam sue ping helping her with her math (sort of) an monica cardoza comes over and asks "hey are you finished?" I answer "yes" wondering why there is a sudden interest in me. The she sits down and asks for help in math. So i figure okay, i can help her with the question shes asking about, so i help her.. and then she goes okay, "i'm gonna stay here a bit to see if i can get the rest." So i say "sure" thinking, i'll help her if she gets stuck, but at the same time going what have i gotten myself into? So i talk to sam, and i see from the corner of my eye, her copying the rest of the questions leaving spaces under them. I realize, she was just gonna ask me to do them for her, and i try not to look her way ever again. i say to sam, "oh, i gotta go soon and meet someone downstairs" Then monica asks for the next question, which i then try to explain, but refuse to write anything on her paper. She passes me her pencil and calculator, with a look that says, do it for me. I begin to think what the hell? what is this girl trying to pull off? we dont talk to eachother. we may smile to eachother in the hall, if anything at all, and suddenly, when she needs me, then she decides to become friendlier. Really, i wasnt about to help this stranger with her math, especially when she expected me to do it for her. i am not one of your math whores!! so i got and said," i have to go meet someone downstairs" , more talking to sam, while ignoring her. if she needed help, maybe she should go to some of her own friends. and if theyre stupid, its not my problem is it?
i dont care if she thinks i am a bitch.. i can live with it, cause people think much worse of her

you should be ashamed of yourselves
i come downstairs to the cold, damp basement (which is usually too cold, but because of the hot weather, just right) and i take the time and trouble to turn on my computer (did i ever tell you that my CPU looks like it should be a part of the MEGAZORD from the Mighty Morphin Power Rangers? Is it called a Megazord? im so lost) anyways, so i go on the net expecting wicked blog entries from people who have gone to prom, and people who have gone to the prom party, and people who went to weezer, and jaxs. But what do i get? i get pitiful two sentenced entries and "prom anecdotes" (and might i mention nothing about the prom party, prom-mobile, or night out on the town). I want details people!! details!!! dont you know i am living vicariously through you guys? Oh and jaxs you havent updated either!! arg.. people..
so i guess everyone should now go and write in their blog all of the juicy details of their friday night so that it may appease me!! APPEASE ME DAMMIT! mwahahahahahaha
: )

Beep beep, Beep beep, YEAH!
so i left school today around ten in the morning and was planning to get home at about 11:15 or so and have about two hours to get ready for my night out with the girls (racs, alana, and lis). But the fucking nugget bus took literally 35 minutes to come and there's two at the same time.. so i get on, and it turns out its a frickin training bus, so it takes this woman YEARS to do the stupid route. I spent almost 50 minutes on that bus, a ride that would have normally taken 25. As i got off, the supervisor said, "thanks for your patience." with a sympathetic look. she knew i was suffering. But on the way to town, the bus driver was wicked! He was a little chinese man with a pot belly and suspenders with a slight accent. He cracked jokes the whole time(which were totally corney) and basically entertained the bus, even though we were all rolling our eyes in response to his sad, sad jokes and comments. so one guy comes onto the bus, after running to catch it and says: "hey can you wait for my girlfriend?" The busdriver replies:"My wife told me im not allowed to pick up girls" the guy knows its supposed to be funny and fakes a smile. Im thinking, this is the best, friendliest goddamn busdriver i've ever had! but then again, maybe i thought that because of my bad bus experience an hour earlier.
the all you can eat garlic bread with cheese at Jack astors is wicked... the bottom is soaked in oil, but the oil is good.

weezer
racs, i am missing weezer for you. love me

A girl's guide to hunting and fishing
so today i left school after lunch and got home at about 2:15.... the nugget seemed to take hours to come.
i walked into my house and realized i had absolutely nothing to do. i made a milkshake, opened the window and sat in my room for 2 hours reading this book i got about a month ago, but never started because school got in the way. I fell asleep. not because the book was boring, it was actually good, (like one of those girl grows up, has boyrfriends, becomes bitter and learns about love sort of stories which is proably too sappy for most of you), but i was for some reason extremely tired. ahh.. it was a "me: day, well more of a "me" afternoon. If only i had a job, life would be perfect.. oh wait and a hunky boyfriend.. hahah i said "hunky"

why is christine's blog all messed up?

out with the girls tomorrow... yay me!

GET READY TO RUMBLE!
i think vanessa is mad at me.... hmph
what did i do wrong?

they threw pine cones at my head
Guess What? today i finished school!!! yay me! just one more stupid bio lab exam!!! arrggg...
racs couldnt go to the mall with me today , and no one else at school was done, and i wasnt really up to going alone (although i was tempted... SUM 41 CD was calling my name) and even though i wanted a new book, i decided to go to jaxs' house afterschool instead..
SUM 41 will be mine soon enough this weekend...
so i told my mom i was basically done, and she HAD to remind me that now i had the time to clean up my piles of mess in my room, the livingroom, and the basement. I still have my luggage and clothes from new york lying in a heap in my room...sigh.. the one downfall of finishing (oh by the way, did i mention i was finsihed?) hahahahaha SUCKERS!

silly rabbit, tricks are for kids
i'm glad school is ending.. i think i need a break from some of my friends... you ever having that feeling too? some people you just see all the time, and you get well kinda sick of them sometimes and sometimes every little thing that they do seems to bug you?...and then theres others who i rarely get to see, and i wish i could spend more time with them right now, especially since theyre going soon... ahhh
it sucks that i dont have a car or a licence for that matter.. or else i would go out with them... *vroom vroom*
and then there are the friends who im not sick of, but who are reading this and wondering if they are one of the ones im sick of, wish i could spend more time with, or not sick of. Guess you'll never know.

If you ever need a break from me, tell me.. i wont be hurt

thanks jaxs for finding my mistake.. all 16 of them (each one the same)
i want blog voices back.. there are so many things i want to say, but not an outlet to say them with...
where blog voices? or a suitable alternative?

I Am Frustrated
I am frustrated.
Frustrated about how someone is acting.
Frustrated at myself and my failed attempts to make amends.
Frustrated that this person did not even try to meet me half way.
Frustrated that I even cared enough to try.

Frustrated that this person does not see that things are different now.
Frustrated that this person cannot see that they will probably never be the same.
Frustrated that this person does not know there is something wrong.
Frustrated that this person does not see it is their fault.
Frustrated that it will happen all over again, cause it has...many, many times.
Frustrated that this person is so self involved at times.
Frustrated that this person tries to act as if everything is still the same.

Frustrated that soon, things will change for the worse.
Frustrated that now i have to face it head on and make a decision.
Frustrated with myself for not telling this person what i have wanted to for so long.
Glad that at least one other person understands.

when i come around
YES! it is the weekend again... a time to veg around the house in my pajamas and a yogurt cup. i love yogurt right now.. its my new addiction....today i went on a lunch date with my buddy jaxs... remember how i knocked down all the garbage cans? how bout the lady withthe walmart bag on her head? hahahaha....
everyone is in school right now!! hahahah fools! FOOLS!

CALLING ALL EMPLOYERS: Ang needs a job
its almost noon.. and i stayed home today cause i promised myself that i would be doing work all day long... work has yet to happen...
blogger is not the same without blogvoices.. in the words of sam: "how dare a fucking free service break down?"
i went to shoppers at woodside and it turns out i have to get written consent from my mom to say that i can work until midnight.. my mom of course does not like this idea cause she is worried about how im getting home... is it my friggin fault that i live in the middle of nowhere? my parents, before moving in, should have forseen the deterioration of the safety of our neighbourhood and the lack of upcoming shops/malls. They should have also forseen the fact that the closest bus stop to our house would be an almost 10 minute walk away (almost 6 minutes running..but i dont run). Even if i get a job in a mall, wont i be leaving at 11 anyways? and woodside is so much easier to get to than scarborough town centre... i need a job.. help.. im actually considering applying at the harvey's at the zoo.... ahhh..

dinner and a show
luke didnt go to dinner friday cause he didnt want to get stuck with all the girls without me there....aww!!!
well, he was actually just joking, but i'll just take it as the truth, cause i desperately want to be special.... i need pieces of special to make a ball full of special things...and i can post this here cause i know neither luke, nor any of his friends read this...hahahaha

i was just using that "whats your glam rock name?" thing nicole has linked onto her page... i got SEX TRANSMISSION. What the hell is sex transmission??? Do i look like a sex transmission?? so i typed in other people's name and theirs actually sounded somewhat sane. For instance, jaxs got GLITTER ANIMAL or GLITTER TOY (depending which first name you use).. yeah it doesnt really make sense, but its girly dammit.. comeon..jaxs a glitter animal?? i want my name to be girly. i think she should be the sex transmission..wait..i think nicole should be the sex transmission...

why is my font on my page suddenly so big? i have no idea! i didnt touch anything.. someone fix the damn font, cause its so big, im pretty sure blind people can read it...

i enjoy those pepsi ads on buses
lately i've been in a very good mood (well at least i think so, others may have different opinions)
i love it when people make you feel special... and sometimes its nothing more than a good conversation or even a couple of words. I feel so appreciated.
i am also very happy cause school is almost over and i am not desperatly scrambling cause i know im okay. I see everyone so stressed out, and it makes me feel bad, but then i remember the three weeks after new york when i almost gave myself an ulcer trying to get back on track.. i love whoever told administration to move back exemption deadlines.. or else i would not have made it in one piece. you would've had to peel an exhausted and smelly (from lack of showering) ang off the floor (on her way to hand in a unit of course) on june first.
listening to this unknown song by a group called the azndreamers (i still cant say it or type it without laughing), which is super-sappy but quite nice right now.
still want to go to grad... help someone!

no blogvoices? what the hell?!!???!!!?

all killer no filler
you know what? i like these sum 41 boys more and more... at first they were just the band with the little boy sam obsessed over...but i really really like them now... i want their new cd.. but have only two dollars to buy it with... and i want weezer too..cause im starting to really enjoy them too.. to bad napster sucks now or else i would have all their songs downloaded by now...sigh...i managed to find hashpipe and downloaded it, but the qualitity totally sucks... you can hear static like every 30 seconds..
anyone going to future shop anytime soon? i need cheap cds...
Oh yeah!! im probably going to see WAVE tomorrow!!! ahh their song is on now.. im going to california, im going to live the life. Sipping on tequilla night after night. dreaming of the momment when everything is right....
i could have gone to see treble charger tonight, but my friend called me last minute and i had no means of finding a friend, talking a shower and getting downtown in like an hour and a half... sigh.. treble charger!! i missed treble charger!!

i want to go to grad! know anyone with an extra ticket? maybe jason in my ta will have one.. hmmm...

so school is almost over.... and life is getting just a little more interesting. but i kinda like all the excitment.. in a way i cant wail until the summer cause there is the possibility of so much happening. like where will a certain person turn? will there be a new couple around town? will friends remain friends? will ang get a job? who is pj harvey and what does she sound like? all the suspense is killing me!!!
nicole, we still gotta go and celebrate our birthdays this summer!! i need pictures of you guys before you leave me...... forever....sigh

i was watching gilmore girls the other day, and i want to be rory...
that bitch has everything.. trendy clothes, a cool mom, a whole town that knows her.. big blue eyes...a boy who told her he loves her...and another gorgeous boy who is also madly in love with her.. sigh.. maybe if i pretend hard enough, it will all happen to me.. and i dont care that rory is a fictional character who of course has a perfect life, because it too is made up...
i want to be rory.. i want to be rory...

this was perhaps one of the most productive weekends in my entire life. i feel as thought i have accomplished so much.. yay me. and thanks you sam so much for your help!!! by the way did i telleveryone how much i hate jekyll and hyde? Who wants to watch the video with me this week?
so yesterday i decide to take a much needed 5 hour break and watch some movies... deuce biggalo and snow falling on cedars.. the latter was quite confusing, and just to point out: i would have picked ethan hawke over that ugly japanese guy anyday...but alas, i have never had the oppertunity to choose over two lovers.. one day..lol!
i hate history.. its my last unit and i just cant seem to get it done.. why the hell do i have to do a fricking family tree of some dead guy? really now?? i cant even find all of the information from that stupic website the unit gives you.. do yo know how big this guys family is?? geez... im mad, i must go and relax....
you are the weakest link..goodbye

commence drooling
yay christine for making valedictorian!!! (yes i know this is old news, but i just found out) i am very proud! you'll sound smart, witty, and SEXY (yes, it is possible to sound sexy). i want to come to grad to hear you. when is it?
yesterday jaxs was over.. and i swear i can still smell her feet. she was rubbing me all over with her socks! okay maybe im exaggerating... but just a little.
on tuesday i have to make a speech in front of the whole school... well not really a speech, more like "hi my name is ang and im your secretary" but still! its in front of the whole school!!! ahhh *peeing myself at just the thought of doing it* what will i do?? ahhh!!! help!!
nicole, trip over your kilt again so that the attention is drawn away from me! (just joking i love you.. but that was sooo funny)
ang has about 12 more units left.. that 6 units a week. not bad.. but then i also have about 30 tests i still have to take,,,i cant wait until summer is here.... its so close, i can taste it... all i need now is a job. and maybe a boy toy.

i love nicole....she knows what's in my twisted head. she too realized that my last blog could have been directed to someone else... im sure many others know who i am talking about.. (mental note: if i ever get up enough guts to tell this person off i can remove two sentences and have a nice little speech here.)

it makes me happy...
so i came back from new york on this emotional high... but as the saying goes, what goes up must come down. Luckily for me, i didn't crash. Yes, im still kind of upset, and i kinda regret that it happened... man, why do people have to be such assholes?
People are not toys. You can't play with us one minute and then suddenly drop us, and expect us to come running back to you the minute we see your face. When we fall, we get scraped. When we are thrown against a wall, we bruise. When you play with our emotions, we get hurt. I feel so fuckin used. I'm probably just another number on the jerk's long list. What makes me feel better is knowing that so many other people hate this asshole too...in fact, it brings me immense JOY knowing this. Dont get me wrong, i didnt really think that anything was going to come of this, but i just hate the way it ended.... so suddenly, so abruptly, without a single word. But at least now there is no more wondering about whether certain actions mean certain things, or if i am just taking them totally out of context. Cause now, i frankly don't fuckin care.

NEW YORK NEW YORK
hey everyone!!! im back from new york, which was one of the best trips ever!!!! It was soo fun! im still thinking about all those sausages and deli sandwiches and shopping!! And you know what? all the gallery hopping we did didnt piss me off as much as i thought it would. in fact i enjoyed most of it. i got to see van gogh's starry night..it was gorgeous..it looks so much better in real life...
but the best part of new york was just hanging out... i luv larualinni, and the guys are actually funny.. and here i was thinking they were jackasses the whole time... well, maybe theyre still kinda jackasses...j/k
i think i need a chiropractor... sleeping on the bus fuckin' sucks... the seats only recline like three inches! how does a person sleep like that? my back was twisted into positions never imagined before... my only regret? (well. maybe there are others), not seeing a broadway show.. but its alright..next time i go i guess..