i apologize to the people reading this.. i know i havent been posting at all, and when i do, it's garbage that no one understands. i too get frustrated when i come on and there is nothing new to read on other people's blogs, so i understand. it's just that i don't feel the need to write here anymore. maybe i'm growing out of it too.. but i think i'll keep it around because afterall, school is starting up once again, and i may need to turn back to this. i did a lot of stuff this summer, gained some independence, wasted some money, spent a lot of time with friends; made new bonds and reaffirmed old ones. most importantly, i grew significantly as a person, or at least I think so. i feel more self-assured. i feel more grown up. i feel different. it's good, i like it. i got a lot of things outta the way this summer.. things i have been waiting for what seems like forever for. i feel more grown up i guess. wow... ang grown up. lol

i can't believe summer is over. wow. so many things happened. i can't even believe it myself. sigh.. tomorrow crepes?

so that's it.. my french boy has gone. who's up for renting a room at a certain hotel so that i can secretly stalk him? lol.. okay maybe a little too far there.

you know you've been spending too much time with black people when... you're a little asian girl who says things like "tough" or "we'll reach ____". hahaha. (disclaimer: although this may sound incredibly racist, i dont mean this in any racist way. this is for those of you reading this who really dont know me that well) I've been spending a lot of time with people from work lately, especially these two guys who live by me. i've never really had friends who were close enough that i could just drop by anytime like this before, other than jaxs's house of course. i've been seeing them wayy too much.. lol every day almost. no matter what we do during the day, somehow at night, we see eachother. it's kinda nice just walking around my neighbourhood, or sitting on the porch with pop, or just haning out in the streets. it may seem simple, but hey, i've never done this before. like tonight, i got a drive home from a friend who went out of his way to drive me home so i wouldn't get raped. we ended up just eating ice cream on my lawn.. mmm hagen dazs. tomorrow? helping someone pick out a birthday present for his girlfriend.. hehehe me and a bunch of football jocks at STC.. hehehe.

Happy Birthday to Me
If one word could describe my day today, it would be love. i felt SOO loved. it makes me smile just thinking about it. I have awesome friends.. and they all went out of their way today to make me feel like a princess. my girls came out fro lunch with me- jaxs, petrina and vanessa.. after a bit of catching up, shopping and eating incredibly sweet cake at my house, jaxs and i went to yoyo's house. it was stupid fun, but fun nonetheless. they ordered pizza and surprised me with ice cream cake. then a visit to a few friends/coworkers in my area with a late-night delivery of cake. lol Thank you guys and everyone that called. and thanks soo mucho jaxs

WOAH!!!!
that is all i have to say.

spent yesterday with nicki and everyone and slept over too. having everyone there wasn't so great. it was nice when they left and we got a chance to talk. poor yoyo and emmanuel must have wanted to hit both of us. its nice to get some things off your chest.
also went on date with jaxs and saw sexy sammy at work. johnny likes to hit on her... hahahah poisoned work environment..

btw.. my cousins are finally gone!!! now ang can have some fun

soo guess what?!?!?!?! i got my G2!!!!
yeahbaby! finally conquered it! however, i barely passed. i seriously didnt think i would. i did SOO many things wrong. but yeah i passed. hehe now waiting for that insurance to kick in

vanessa!!! i still dont know how to park and will have no time to until the morning before my test.. maybe the night before.. lol

if anyone has 5-6 free tomrrow evening, come visit me cause i'll have nothing to do at work.

went to niagara falls today with the family. it was gross. we were there early and it was still kinda cold out. we got soaked by the 'mist' from the falls, which seemed more like a rainstorm than simple mist. i don't know what was in that mist but we were left feeling sticky afterwards.. makes you wonder doesnt it? i don't like long car rides. i don't like waking up at 7:00 on a non-school day. i dont like crowds of people. i dont like smelly tourists (even though i am technically considered one of them). i don't like the hot sun beaming down on me while i still feel sticky with mist residue. but the conversations with my little cousins and the stupid things we did made it worth all the hassle.

when i daydream, i set myself up for failure. i always hope for the best and convince myself that something, which has no way of occuring will, and then when it doesn't happen, i get upset. STOP BEING SUCH A LOSER ANG!!!

been really busy latley with family being down and all. i sorta feel guilty for not being around enough but really, if i were around them more, they would not want me around becase i would be in a miserable and foul mood. i need breaks. i need money. i need the company of people outside of my house.

um vanessa, our test is really really REALLY soon.

jason and karen meets old navy
i took my cousins shopping yesterday. i told them i would get them each an old navy outfit and that we would pick out their clothes. They said that they knew they would look cool because they have a cool cousin (lol) and their mom wouldn't be allowed to come in.
I want to have children just so that i can dress them up. i dont want any of the responsibilities, i just want to take them shopping for outfits. future career? We had to go into the change room a couple of times because i had picked up totally wrong sizes for them.. (i was an old navy failure) and the boys selection was somewhat limited, which wasn't helped by the fact that jason is a picky dresser.. but it was nevertheless sooo fun. i got karen a knee length denim skirt with a light blue and white striped rugby top and jason antique washed painter jeans with a t-shirt.. they were soo cute. i'll post a picture of them later. i changed them before we went to see their mom. she didnt even recognize them..lol (which gives me an idea if i ever want to be a serial kidnapper when i grow up). french boy was there in the kids' section. he wasn't the most helpful, but he tried. it was cute. he spoke french to karen and jason and even though i didnt know what the hell he said, i wanted to fuckin' melt into one big, liquidy, (and hopefully for my sake) sexy blob.. sigh

just taking a few minutes to catch up with everyone while my cousins are getting washed up for bed. wow. i never realized how anti-kids i can be. i can deal with them for only a few hours before i want to pull mu hair out. i have a new respect for those who have to deal with those brats on a daily basis and for hours on end (ie: teachers, camp counsellors, etc.). its so.. soo.. draining.

umm is anything happening for petrina's birthday? cause i have the day off.. call me in the evening sometime and tell me.

what have i been up to? nothing really out of the ususal. ive been at work a lot.. and im sorta relieved.. work's a lot less stressful and plus i get paid (bonus!lol) but yeah a week or so of fun family ness.. im sorta scared.. lol

just got back from jaxs' birthday dessert with a couple of ladies i have not seen for a while. she called while i was washing the kitchen floor (chinese people have weird obsession with cleaning house from top to bottom when people come by) so i wasnt sure if i could leave because i stillhad to wax it. Dessert was fun, full of girlish gossip and it was just nice to see my sams again. i am soo tired, but i cant go to sleep or else crepes/waffles, whipped cream, ice cream, strawberry and chocolate sauces will go straight to thighs. lol also, i have to finish cleaning my room. my cousins are coming down and well i'm working all day tomrrow and plan to go to spammabanna in the evening soo.. i dont have time to de-grossify my room for them except for right now. do you think they'll mind seeing a pile of underwear on the floor when they open the closet? it is clean afterall.. they can push it aside to put their suitcases down..

i think i'm sick from mark and bethany's chilli... either that or its from eating so much swiss chalet and cake for jaxs' birthday today..because it can't possibly be the cookies nicki and i made yesterday.. we are simply too martha stewart-y to poison ourselves.
yesterday was awesome. it was one of those impromptu get togethers. we made chilli and baked cookies and talked and played monopoly.. lol it was the greatest

today surprised jaxs for her birthday..even though she probably already knew it was coming. lol we tried.. and it was us, and like always, we freaked out..lol HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAXS!!!!