i found a sample of candies for men, and decide to open it and smell.. it smelled like men.. so i decide to put some on (dont ask me why i made this connection) so i dab some on my neck and i smell myslef.. and i smell like boys.. and i like it. a lot..
so i sat there with the edge of my sweatshirt next to my nose watching james marsden (who is sex in human-male form) on ally mcbeal. What's WRONG with me? oh lord if im like this now...
nevertheless, i will be wearing men's cologne tomorrow
Monday, October 29, 2001
Sunday, October 28, 2001
im tired.. after a day of doing what? Wanted to do homework. Ended up watching the last 2/3 of billy elliot eating ritz crackers and fruit. I should go to bed, but then i realize its really only 11:20 (if you could the hour we gain) and therefore cannot cause it wouod be a crime.
i am insanely jealous of jeanette's (aka my soulmate, although i am sure she has many) blogging skills.. how can so much come form one girl? She must be really good at religion and english
i am insanely jealous of jeanette's (aka my soulmate, although i am sure she has many) blogging skills.. how can so much come form one girl? She must be really good at religion and english
Saturday, October 27, 2001
changes
Talking to my mom today and she said something about how in the last few months its been so busy around here. I thought to myself and wondered how she could possibly say that. No one had visited, we haven't gone anywhere. Nothing dramatic at all had happened. Further into the conversation I began to understand what she meant. She was saying how so much has happened with us (me and my brother) lately and was not talking specifically about big events. Just little things that all add up and then seem like a big difference once you look back at them. And its true. If you are reading this, picture yourself about 3-4 months ago when school was about to end. You may not have noticed it during the time that the changes occured, but looking back, things are crazy different. People now have jobs, lisences and in some cases, their own cars. People have boyfriends and new groups of friends. Some have different interests and have goals for future occupations and lives which before were so unclear. People have taken up new activities and dropped old ones. And i know this is the way life is supposed to go, and im not afraid of change.. but does it all really need to go this fast? Im sorry, cause i know this is depressing, but to think in about 2 months time, people will be begining to turn 18. In 4 months time, we will have to decide what to do in oac and in about a years time, we will basically be defining the rest of our lives. Its sad that i think about these things, sometimes.....more than an healthy person should.
Talking to my mom today and she said something about how in the last few months its been so busy around here. I thought to myself and wondered how she could possibly say that. No one had visited, we haven't gone anywhere. Nothing dramatic at all had happened. Further into the conversation I began to understand what she meant. She was saying how so much has happened with us (me and my brother) lately and was not talking specifically about big events. Just little things that all add up and then seem like a big difference once you look back at them. And its true. If you are reading this, picture yourself about 3-4 months ago when school was about to end. You may not have noticed it during the time that the changes occured, but looking back, things are crazy different. People now have jobs, lisences and in some cases, their own cars. People have boyfriends and new groups of friends. Some have different interests and have goals for future occupations and lives which before were so unclear. People have taken up new activities and dropped old ones. And i know this is the way life is supposed to go, and im not afraid of change.. but does it all really need to go this fast? Im sorry, cause i know this is depressing, but to think in about 2 months time, people will be begining to turn 18. In 4 months time, we will have to decide what to do in oac and in about a years time, we will basically be defining the rest of our lives. Its sad that i think about these things, sometimes.....more than an healthy person should.
Wednesday, October 24, 2001
Im back!! im back!! and the conference sucked.. im sorry but overly happy people bother me.. Girls who giggle wayy to much scare me and when people like these are around you all the time, and all you want to do is sleep, it makes you want to hit each and every one of them. But i got free hair gel samples, a video of the Patriot (mmm..heath leger) and free lipgloss, so im happy.. dalton is fun.. way funner than i would have ever anticipated.. If anything good came from this conference, is that i know know everyone better, both good and bad qualities
Saturday, October 20, 2001
I'm leaving on a jet plane...
okay maybe not in a jet plane, more like dalton's car.. his old beat up jeep.. but i rather be in there then in a humongous van witha whole bunch of people i dont know/like. So the hell that is this trip will start tomorrow... I am hoping it'll be fun.. it will right? Please tell me it will. And another bad thing is that for about 7 hours jess, simone and joyce will be gone cause they have to go back for field hockey. If you really knew me, you would know what that means. Adrian told me in one of his workshops last year, the speaker was talking about living in the moment and was asking people about things they wished they did but didnt do.. One guy got picked out of the group and said "i want to tell my mom i love her more", and the speaker guy whipped out his cell phone and the boy had to call and tell his mom he loved her in front of everyone!! Who the hell does that???
Onto a different subject... the last two days with my girls was wicked.. loads of fun!! Jaxs looked good... do we have any pictures of her hair and makeup? i want them! The centreville boys were nice...they actually tried to make conversation.. but obviously our side of the table wasnt as fun as the other side since matt left.. or maybe he just wanted to get a closer view.. hahahaha
Yes, all in all a very good dinner. I had curls.. and i enjoyed them thoroughly. Thanks lis for doing them again.. i'll be knocking at your door when semi time rolls by... hehehee..
okay maybe not in a jet plane, more like dalton's car.. his old beat up jeep.. but i rather be in there then in a humongous van witha whole bunch of people i dont know/like. So the hell that is this trip will start tomorrow... I am hoping it'll be fun.. it will right? Please tell me it will. And another bad thing is that for about 7 hours jess, simone and joyce will be gone cause they have to go back for field hockey. If you really knew me, you would know what that means. Adrian told me in one of his workshops last year, the speaker was talking about living in the moment and was asking people about things they wished they did but didnt do.. One guy got picked out of the group and said "i want to tell my mom i love her more", and the speaker guy whipped out his cell phone and the boy had to call and tell his mom he loved her in front of everyone!! Who the hell does that???
Onto a different subject... the last two days with my girls was wicked.. loads of fun!! Jaxs looked good... do we have any pictures of her hair and makeup? i want them! The centreville boys were nice...they actually tried to make conversation.. but obviously our side of the table wasnt as fun as the other side since matt left.. or maybe he just wanted to get a closer view.. hahahaha
Yes, all in all a very good dinner. I had curls.. and i enjoyed them thoroughly. Thanks lis for doing them again.. i'll be knocking at your door when semi time rolls by... hehehee..
Thursday, October 18, 2001
Saturday, October 13, 2001
its weird,, i think both of my urls are working right now.. interesting huh?
Today was a very blobish day... but somehow i almost finished my chem notes during it. I have no rcollection how or when i did them, but all i know is that they are almost done. However, i cant do anymore cause no textbook for me and i have to get them into skillicorn for monday... hmm how much do you think i can get done during my spare?
Played with my new washing machine and found out what what "the delicate/handwash cycle" means. I put my uniform pants in there. The washer literally runs for 5 seconds, stops and another 50 seconds later it runs again for another 5. Maybe its a little too delicate.
So the dance was stupid, and incredibly stressful at the begining cause i needed a photocopier to xerox the ticket list and it was already 7 and we couldnt get into the office and the other photocopier was broken and dalton was getting all stressed at me too, but what could i do? But me and jess had our laughs in our booth. You know the kiosk thing inthe front lobby that has food sold from it during lunch? well wee were in there. The front lobby was totally dark, and there were two red flood lights lighting up our booth, as we peered out of our window. At first I felt like a piece of rotisserie gold just baking in there.. then i realized jess and i were in a little room, with a window and a large red light, and felt that some dirty old man should come up and offer us money for a peep show. lol then mr stepanian walked into the lobby.
Today was a very blobish day... but somehow i almost finished my chem notes during it. I have no rcollection how or when i did them, but all i know is that they are almost done. However, i cant do anymore cause no textbook for me and i have to get them into skillicorn for monday... hmm how much do you think i can get done during my spare?
Played with my new washing machine and found out what what "the delicate/handwash cycle" means. I put my uniform pants in there. The washer literally runs for 5 seconds, stops and another 50 seconds later it runs again for another 5. Maybe its a little too delicate.
So the dance was stupid, and incredibly stressful at the begining cause i needed a photocopier to xerox the ticket list and it was already 7 and we couldnt get into the office and the other photocopier was broken and dalton was getting all stressed at me too, but what could i do? But me and jess had our laughs in our booth. You know the kiosk thing inthe front lobby that has food sold from it during lunch? well wee were in there. The front lobby was totally dark, and there were two red flood lights lighting up our booth, as we peered out of our window. At first I felt like a piece of rotisserie gold just baking in there.. then i realized jess and i were in a little room, with a window and a large red light, and felt that some dirty old man should come up and offer us money for a peep show. lol then mr stepanian walked into the lobby.
Glo-stick necklaces for a dollar
is it wrong to suddenly feel sexier just cause someone says i look it? even if they were joking and playing around, and you knew it? i like it when people say that.. and i know this stupid of me to think i am just cause it's said half jokingly. Maybe thats why i say it so much, cause it brings me so much happiness and i want to spread it around. hahaha.
I dunno.. today was a weird day.. filled with weird conversations about boys and girls and how you would show someone of the opposite sex that you like them. I basically admitted that guys are screwed cause girls are as complicated and messed up as they think we are. lol Also realized im a big fat flirt sometimes, but as soon as a guy responds in any way i get scared and want to run.. cause i guess im no longer in control.. i like to be in control.. but why do i constantly feel the need to be babied?
Talking about confused people, heather was wearing this survivor tube top and she had her belly button pierced and she had loads of makeup on and she totally did not match her personality, which jess called "motherly".. we think shes confused and still needs to find herself. I still need to find myself, but I'm hoping I'm not THAT lost.
is it wrong to suddenly feel sexier just cause someone says i look it? even if they were joking and playing around, and you knew it? i like it when people say that.. and i know this stupid of me to think i am just cause it's said half jokingly. Maybe thats why i say it so much, cause it brings me so much happiness and i want to spread it around. hahaha.
I dunno.. today was a weird day.. filled with weird conversations about boys and girls and how you would show someone of the opposite sex that you like them. I basically admitted that guys are screwed cause girls are as complicated and messed up as they think we are. lol Also realized im a big fat flirt sometimes, but as soon as a guy responds in any way i get scared and want to run.. cause i guess im no longer in control.. i like to be in control.. but why do i constantly feel the need to be babied?
Talking about confused people, heather was wearing this survivor tube top and she had her belly button pierced and she had loads of makeup on and she totally did not match her personality, which jess called "motherly".. we think shes confused and still needs to find herself. I still need to find myself, but I'm hoping I'm not THAT lost.
Monday, October 08, 2001
Friday, October 05, 2001
well my hotmail is totally busted.. and only from my computer apparently.. which makes it suck even more.
went downtown today with petriners.. and we went to the reference library so i could get some research photocopied.. hahah.. i needs to go back though to see the periodicals.. we went for lunch and then SHOPPING! hahah i got myself a coat at american eagle a bright red one.. everyone watch out!!! hahaha
went downtown today with petriners.. and we went to the reference library so i could get some research photocopied.. hahah.. i needs to go back though to see the periodicals.. we went for lunch and then SHOPPING! hahah i got myself a coat at american eagle a bright red one.. everyone watch out!!! hahaha
Wednesday, October 03, 2001
yay sammy put in reblogger for me, and not i have comments once again, so everyone go comment! GO!!!!
i got mentioned in christine's blog.. thus, i am officially cool.. christine needs to bring her booty as well as her boytoy's around here more so that we can gawk and giggle at them.. and so we can all get some christine lovin' for ourselves.. share the wealth baby.. lol
i got mentioned in christine's blog.. thus, i am officially cool.. christine needs to bring her booty as well as her boytoy's around here more so that we can gawk and giggle at them.. and so we can all get some christine lovin' for ourselves.. share the wealth baby.. lol
i have a computer-induced headache.. wrote two pages of SAC minutes which weren't bad,but then there came the essay.. ugh!! i remember when english essays were worth a whole unit!! some areas an essay was worth two units!! when did they suddenly become written assignments? they stick it in there like its no big deal..like oh yeah, you have to write an essay!! well its done and over with that god! lets see what mark i get.. ahhhhh
Monday, October 01, 2001
everything in my life right now is like a peach.. life is peachy...
theres the soft furry outside.. i think im on very good terms with all of my friends and teachers..even lucciola.. i know its something a normal person is concerned about, but face it im not normal and i think about it a lot.. i worry about these things and am content and warm and fuzzy inside when i know everything is well with the world.. even work is great.. ahh..so yeah im not annoyed or angry or sad with anyone that i care about right now, and no one hates me, so thats always good.. hahaha
then the peach has a weird sorta, "well its alright and all, yet im still not sure i like it, but maybe this is what makes life interesting" area.. what fits into this area? well law and physics basically.. i solved that whole avn or sph thing.. and its physics.. i think i owe it to myself.. to bad i am barely understanding it.. well i kinda understand it, and you know who i have to thank for this? ms. macisaac! omigosh i cant believe those words are coming out of my mouth.. but yeah i actually enjoy her teaching me.. not totally in a i love wetzel way. but ebough that i think shes a really good teacher and interested in what she has to offer.. oh yeah and we had this whole conversation about how she remebers how mark was lazy in grade nine and still is now, and apparently she remebers me from grade nine too when she taught me.. you dont understand how scared i was when she said this.. but she said i was "pretty keen". i'm taking it as a positive thing.. but im gonna have to look up the exact definition of "keen" to find out if it can be twisted into something bad.. (yes, maybe i am a little paranoid).. so yeah and then theres 's the whole "i hate that stupid annoying girl from work" but it doesnt matter cause other people hate her too so therefore my hate is somewhat justified. Anyone else start unit 3 chem? are you ready to cry? is it possible to be even more lost and confused after skillicorn's seminar.. im sure she;s smart and all (okay, maybe not sure) but that woman just can't give a seminar. OAC law is weird with lucciola.. shes screwing up these deadlines.. she want our research in by october/early november... but my point (which i tried to tell her) was that it was stupid cause our essays were due the week before christmas break.. isnt the research the big part? so yeah off to downtown to do research for my first OAC ISP! ahhhh help!!
the last part to the peach? the hard bumpy core in the middle.. lets face it.. i got a month to do all of my law isp research and i am feeling soo incredibly lost.. i need guidance and help.. the only upside is knowing that i can carry it over no problem..very scared about the presentation/debate cause when lucciola's opinion isnt the same as yours she makes it known.. poor betty fung almost got eaten alive in class by her.. i mean betty had a valid opinion but lucciola almost bit her head off.. i mean she was basically barking/yelling at her.. i wanted to cry and it wasnt even my presentation.. yikes and i have also come to the realization that i am not getting my g2 in november... why? cause its a month and a half away exaclty and i havent driven since april.. so umm.. we'll see but im not feeling too confident right now..
theres the soft furry outside.. i think im on very good terms with all of my friends and teachers..even lucciola.. i know its something a normal person is concerned about, but face it im not normal and i think about it a lot.. i worry about these things and am content and warm and fuzzy inside when i know everything is well with the world.. even work is great.. ahh..so yeah im not annoyed or angry or sad with anyone that i care about right now, and no one hates me, so thats always good.. hahaha
then the peach has a weird sorta, "well its alright and all, yet im still not sure i like it, but maybe this is what makes life interesting" area.. what fits into this area? well law and physics basically.. i solved that whole avn or sph thing.. and its physics.. i think i owe it to myself.. to bad i am barely understanding it.. well i kinda understand it, and you know who i have to thank for this? ms. macisaac! omigosh i cant believe those words are coming out of my mouth.. but yeah i actually enjoy her teaching me.. not totally in a i love wetzel way. but ebough that i think shes a really good teacher and interested in what she has to offer.. oh yeah and we had this whole conversation about how she remebers how mark was lazy in grade nine and still is now, and apparently she remebers me from grade nine too when she taught me.. you dont understand how scared i was when she said this.. but she said i was "pretty keen". i'm taking it as a positive thing.. but im gonna have to look up the exact definition of "keen" to find out if it can be twisted into something bad.. (yes, maybe i am a little paranoid).. so yeah and then theres 's the whole "i hate that stupid annoying girl from work" but it doesnt matter cause other people hate her too so therefore my hate is somewhat justified. Anyone else start unit 3 chem? are you ready to cry? is it possible to be even more lost and confused after skillicorn's seminar.. im sure she;s smart and all (okay, maybe not sure) but that woman just can't give a seminar. OAC law is weird with lucciola.. shes screwing up these deadlines.. she want our research in by october/early november... but my point (which i tried to tell her) was that it was stupid cause our essays were due the week before christmas break.. isnt the research the big part? so yeah off to downtown to do research for my first OAC ISP! ahhhh help!!
the last part to the peach? the hard bumpy core in the middle.. lets face it.. i got a month to do all of my law isp research and i am feeling soo incredibly lost.. i need guidance and help.. the only upside is knowing that i can carry it over no problem..very scared about the presentation/debate cause when lucciola's opinion isnt the same as yours she makes it known.. poor betty fung almost got eaten alive in class by her.. i mean betty had a valid opinion but lucciola almost bit her head off.. i mean she was basically barking/yelling at her.. i wanted to cry and it wasnt even my presentation.. yikes and i have also come to the realization that i am not getting my g2 in november... why? cause its a month and a half away exaclty and i havent driven since april.. so umm.. we'll see but im not feeling too confident right now..
