second thoughts

Sometimes I get hit in the face with how big of a challenge next year is going to be - and how inadequate and unprepared I am. At times I feel so lost in the conversations at work and I wonder: if I feel too stupid to be a grad student at western... how am I going to stand a chance in my super competitive department at u of t?

Maybe the thrill of living in Toronto got to my head and has clouded my judgement. Maybe the fact that I am no longer happy in London - with its undergraduate feel and drinking-obsessed mentality... oh and the fact that I feel like an immigrant- has played too big of a role. Maybe I should have listened to all those warnings and stayed here... where at least I would be happy academically as opposed to feeling sub-par and struggling the next few years.

I'm bad at making decisions.

one year

wow it's been a year since I've posted on this thing. google seems to own everything.

maybe I'll start this thing up again.