so with the craziness AFTER valentines.. lol well my matchmaker DID say i would be experiencing an emotional low.. lol but i dont think that quite explains it cause notice how its not exactly MY emotional low, its an emotional low caused by everyone else.

so vanessa and i totally made a yucky.. who'd have thought huh? DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA! moomoo and ang strike again....lol

btw: THANK YOU JEFF ..hehehee.. and thank goodness you never read this

So despite the fact that i yet again lack a boy this year, valentines day was pretty good. I've never been one to scoff at the holiday, cause i think thats only what bitter people do. And actually, i think its a really cool holiday and people just make too much of this whole couples thing.
I was determined not to stay home for valentines. i needed to be out. i needed my parents to think that there was perhaps a boy who was willing to make me run away from them; who maybe was a threat to their grasp on me. I dont know why, i just feel better knowing this. Gee, after reading that, it makes you wonder why i haven't thrown myself at some weird ghetto malvern boy and am bearing his children right now as we speak. I've always told my mom she was lucky i never tunred out to be on of those girls.. cause i SO could have been. But yeah fun with friends and food and fatty desserts and coffee. What more could i ask for? i didnt have a date with just one boy, i had it with two and three girlfriends.. hehehe
I think the change in people and environment was good for me, which kinda just confirms my whole 'fear of committment' thing i have, but lately. some people are just starting to bring me down and i realize for my own health and sanity, no matter how much i love them as friends or how much fun i sometimes have with them, i need to be away. I get to involved somethinmes i think i get to codependent if thats even what it is. Oh crap i just picked my scab and now i'm bleeding. mental note: jeff is getting a big head from so many girls vying to be his back up prom date. don't encourage it. lol

New Year's Resolutions well sort of..
I've decided that i need fixing. I'm broken too. I feel like writing it on my head, just to warn people. I don't know when i got broken, or exactly what did it to me, I just am. Sometimes I'll do something or say something and simutaneously wonder what the hell i am doing. Sometimes i don't understand. I don't like some of the things i do...
-i'm going to be nicer
-less cynical, but still realistic
-i'm gonna stop fighting with people as if they are an ex-husband or mother-in-law that i just never got along with. I would rather just leave the situation alone.
-i will no longer hang around people who send me bad vibes.. i think i am slowly being eaten away and turning into them.
-i'm gonna start trying, REALLY trying
-gain a new appreciation for the small things
-rekindle somewhat lost friendships
this list could go on forever,. but i guess ill stop it here. I am a work in progress, or shoudl i say, I'm under construction?

someone take me out for valentine's.. in SOO not staying home

Four day weekend baby!
So it's been an awesome weekend.... why can't every weekend be four days and full of friend goodness? I'm spoiled i admit it.. i have awesome people around me.
here's an update:
wednesday night after I finished work, despite her sense of better judgement, nicki lets me kidnap her for an evening of eating and girly bonding. We picked up some bubble tea (yes, how very asian of me), wings and pizza and went to her house. I like those quiet nights at home, well maybe quiet isn't quite the word to describe it really, cause we get pretty loud..
Thursday i call up jeanette, who's always ready for fun (that is why i love her) and we end up going to market with sam.. we picked out our lunches from meus we only half understood and from pictures posted on the wall. after bitching for 3 hours we end up at lis's house for a continuation of what can only be called bitchfest. I LOVED IT! so therapeutic. i swear its the only reason why i havent murdered someone yet. To end the day, shopping spree at shoppers, even more chinese food, and a night at moomoo's which ended early for me cause i was soo tired.
Friday I finally get to spend some time with jaxs.... who is satan and lures me away from my computer and english (which is why i love her..lol). We get mcdonalds and end up at luke's house. I've never really been in there before.. only once, long enough to break a bee. I love luke.. i love snowflake, i love his bird that woos me with her love call. Oh and he has this awesome flying monkey target game. it's the BEST! i wouldnt rather have anyone else laugh at my failures.. its funny cause he seriously tried really REALLY hard to teach me, but i failed. After work its movie night at moomoos. SWEET HOME ALABAMA!! lol
Saturday didnt look like it would amount to much especially since work and car conflicts stopped sam and i from having our date.. But there was still an impromptu, late-night adventure. It's amazing how one night can change your view of someone almost totally around. i love my boys.. yes, thats right they're MY boys.. lol HOOKER HUNTING was funny. (and yes, if anyone was wondering, there are still hookers out at 2 am in the middle of winter)
Sunday stayed home to make self less guilty of weekend goodness