i smell like strawberries
it was supposed to be a shopping trip for "just the girls" after a long summer of not seeing eachother at all.... a day downtown with me nicki and amanda...
but five extra people ended up coming.. so we were the downtown with yoyo, mark, leo and two other boys as well. it is very complicated to go shopping in a group of 8 people.. people get left behind.. people decide to go ahead.. people get bored while waiting for one person to getout of the changing rooms cause she is trying on the equivalent of a whole rack of clothes!! hahaha
but it was fun too while waiting.. yoyo and i argue like brother and sister. Anything from who's ass is bigger and taking more room on the chair that we shared to debating whether nicola was actually going to buy anything after trying on the whole store!
it was fun.. people i havent seen since well the last BBQ but still.. these are basically the only people i like from the BBQ.. minus the two boys who came along..
but by the end of the day i was tired and bitchy feeling.. and so was everyone else.. so we sat in the subway on our way home.. not really talking but laughing at secret jokes shared by only a couple of people while resting our heads on whatever or whomever we could find..
i got a birthday gift too from nicki and amanda!!! the body shop strawberry spritz thingy i was talking about, lip balm (also strawberry) and soap that i liked.. i was really surprised cause i didint even see them buy it and i was surprised that they even knew what i liked or even got me anything cause there was no need to get me anyhting and my birthday was a while ago

i am very content right now... there is a warm, toasty fire in my heart.. (hahah im a loser for saying that)

MY FINGERS ARE STICKY
it was a day of sticky hands...
our outing with mark and luke finally worked out..even though jac sen dropped out of it (stupid camp).... but yeah something which was planned actually materialized this summer.. it can actually happen!! we went bowling first.. hahaha very fun, even though i sucked very much!! 70 something is a good score right? hahahahah
then we went to LeSpot.. for pool.. and me and jaxs were very scared.. i felt like i was in some biker bar in Taiwan.. it was very ghetto there.. me and jaxs sucked sooooo sooo much... well maybe jaxs sucked more.. at least my cue ball would hit things!! hahahaha
yeah i think the guys sort of got impatient with our suck-i-ness... so we let them play a "real game" while me and jaxs gossiped about them and the other people in the place.. hahaha pool whores!
we then went to marks house for some food.. chicken legs!! they were pretty good.. i dont know why yoyo doesnt like them.. then again, maybe we were just really hungry
then up to marks room to point and laugh at things.. ghostwriter book!!! hahahaha and we looked at maxim magazines (careful not to touch the pages too much, just in case..you know...)

why dont parents understand? an age-old question i guess.. starting from when adam and eve first gave birth to cain and abel.. if i knew the story about how one of the sons killed the other, i would tell you a witty story about how it relates to modern day, but alas, i dont know the story, so thats the end of it i guess...
but really.. its basically a week till summer is over.. is it really that bad if i dont feel like i need to make time for you? is it that bad if maybe i would rather go out with my friends while i can? is it my fault i have plans for the begining of the week and youre working at the end of the week? dammit..

it feels like a goat rubbing against you
tonight was fantabulous..i was out with my two sammys.... lucky me! (arent you all jealous).. jaxs couldnt come cause her mom was mad.. too bad.. but we went to see a movie and well jaxs woundt have come anyway..cause she has issues.. but i still wished she had come. yes so it was great! shopping(well not enough shopping, but less is better cause then i spend less), talking about boys.. (ahem sam) and movie and food and a big toothbrush!! hahahah and who can forget my "malvern homies" sitting in the row in front of us, disturbing the peace!! hahahaha sam s got school shoes and sam m found boots she really like .. and i want shoes too but havent seen any i would die for.. (sams boots were really nice but im not sure about the material.. is that waterproof?) i think im secretly still hoping for leather ones that go around my ginormous calves...
hahah rat race was funny..everyone go watch it! i think any movie with breken meyer and seth green is worth a watch... a lot of well known actors are in it.. but the ending sucked.. that was a dissapointment

i was thinking today while i was lying on my familyroom floor staring at the stucco-ed ceiling (yes, it was a very boring day) and i realized i was finally 17. i mean ive been saying i was 17 for months now (your allowed to say your new age as long as its three months before your birthday) and so when i actually turned 17, it didnt feel like anything really that big. but today i realized that i felt like a friggin 14 or 15 year old.. literally. In eigth grade, i had such an idealized perception/image of what life would be like when i was seventeen.. i just thought being this old would be some sort of continuous party or something.. i wouldnt have imagined that i would be spending my weekends pretty much the same way as i did then. i know its wayyy better now than before, but i just thought there would be more.
proabably when im in my last year of collage or soemthing i'll be having the same conversation in my head.. about how i thought i would be living on my own, in an ikea decorated apartment (but it will scream me, and not scream ikea like last year's big brother house) and i will have a boyfriend.. correction, live-in boyfriend (hahahaha) and i will know exactly what i want to do with my life and so will he (we are very motivated/inspired/ambitious people), and i will go out every weekend.. to parties, to cottages.. or just strolling around town.. i will study by day, and play by night. and my mom will still be calling every other week "just to check in"

one day i want to not be self-contious when i eat alone in the food court of a busy mall...
i want boys to lust after me and pursue me like the way they do in movies
i want to leave my mark on society and leave a lasting impression wherever i go (a good one of course)
i want to be known as more than the smart girl whos a bitch sometimes
i want to be able to have enough confidence to tell people what i think of them to their face and not only in my head
i want to say all the things that i have in my head, tucked away somewhere, which i dont remeber right now

i totally forgot to tell you guys about the thing that happened at LeChateau at fairview with me and jaxs and petrina!! go read jaxs blog!! cause she tells it good

went to the bank today to close my account... we were getting crazy service charges.. last month was 13 dollars practically.. so i went to talk to the teller and found out the limit was changed.. i heard 2500, but it was really 25 000. so yeah we didnt have that kind of cash.. and didnt want to continue to pay crazy fees so we closed it..
i could have opened a kiddie account.. (note: sam, youre not scamming the bank afterall, youre allowed to keep it now until you reach 18) but i would only get it for a year and have to change it again.. so yeah i got a GROWN UP account..hahaha but it still kinda sucks..service charges if i go over 10 debits a month.and i literally get 0 interest. buti wont need thatmany debit stuff when school starts.

money money money money
went yesterday to fairview and got my paycheck.. second last.. stupid manager schedualed me so that i have to go back again..argg
so i went with jaxs and petrina in jaxs cool new volkswagon, flick! haahah didnt do much shopping though.. actually none of us bought ANYTHING.. but enjoyable still.. im still thinking about my body shop strawberry mist.. hmm.. maybe i will go get it

I'm baaaaaaaaaack!!!!
jaxs fixed my blog, it is not longer retarded and now lets me post... yay jaxs

i have the most wicked friends in the world!!! yesterday on my birthday they came to surprise me with hugs and ballooons!!! a big boquet of colourfull balloons!! the night before, jaxs and i agreed that she would get me around 12-1230.. so i start calling her at 1145 to find out when she was coming. the phone keeps on ringing.. i call her cell. it too kept on ringing.. i called her a billion times. no answer. i thought, maybe shes on the toilet or something taking a shit.. but then she finally picks up her cell and says she was doing some errands for her mom.. i though thats was a little suspicious.. jackie getting up early to do errands for her mom when we could have done them after lunch?
i thought they would all be at the restaurant waiting for me or something.. so i later go upstairs to put on my contacts and mid hand-wash the doorbell rings.. i panic cause i know its jaxs coming to pick me up, and being the girl that i am, i am not ready.
i open the door and there is everyone!! sam, vanessa (who got up early with jaxs to get me balloons), lis, and jaxs and the bunch of balloons.. hahah i felt special (whoohoo!!)
we went to caseys where nicole met up with us later.. oh and i had to carry this big elmo ballooon that announced to the world that it was indeed my birthday as sam sang (and danced) to "who let the dogs out" in jaxs car while we all watched strange men laugh at her (i love sam, without her, life would not be entertaining)
sadly, after dinner i had to go to work while the party continued at vanessa's... arg.. its okay i had free minutes all day on my phone so i called lis and went shoppig with her until it was 4. all in all a very VERY good day! to top it off, it was my last day at japan camera and i got hugs and my photo taken by gay men and sabrina (who is also wicked) got me her famous dip with vegetables (my digestive tract thanks her) and cake and bubble juice.
thank you guys, i love you soooo much!!

AHHHHH
first jaxs votes me off the survivor island then she kills my blog comments!!
they will be back later on this week.. when i redo my blog..

im freeeeee!! well almost
this weekend at work was pure hell.... it was only me and sabrina, which is really fun, except there was lots of work. saturday morning, we come and and set up.. then about 15 minutes after we turned it on, we hear a frantic beeping from the machine. we thought that the control strip we sent in was stuck or something so i go to look.... i start smelling something funny. i was gonna tell sabrina that soemthing was funky smelling when i realized it was coming from the machine and there was this sudden big cloud of smoke. i stand there like an idiot going : "uhhh" and a guy from the front finally tells me to trun off the power.. he comes and investigates and sparks start flying at him...we called my manager and we had to turn off the electricity to the whole store.. we stood in darkness until we got security.. my manager says i poured the water in too fast... sabrina and i think that she just want something to blame the mess on.. how can i pour water too fast??? saturday was hectic even though there was one less machine to operate.. then the priniting machine broke downa nd we had to call someone in the japan camera downtown to help us.. were such losers..
today wasnt so bad.. i printed all day.. we were actually on time with out one hours, unlike saturday when we were asking for three hours.. hahaha, and people are still willing to pay the one hour price interesting huh?

perhaps the only thing that kept me going was knowing that i only had 2 or 3 shifts left to go.. just tomorrow and im gone!! finally!!

sign my guestbook!! each and everyone of you!

the gay guys at work are the best.. when one of them dances and sings to the backstreet boys and wiggles his bum, and another checks out pictures of a man who he claims "has very good genes" with you (although i insisit his cousin is wayy better looking), and the other sits there with his big eyes laughing at the crazyness, you know its a good night

the world is ending
im worried.. and for thoseof you who know me, you know this is a regular thing...
i was thinking.. maybe i took too much on this year too early without realizing that i may not be able to do it all.. im sorry to get everyone down with my back to school bad mood... but i just gotta say this stuff. and dammit, its my blog
i got two oacs next year.. which means i really gotta work at them. one is chemistry.. which is going to be interesting..cause grade 11 chemistry was non-sensical enough (especially at the begining) i cant remeber anything that i have learned two months ago.. i dont know how to bond.. i cant name the stupid molecules.. and then theres law.. im hoping that somehows deoliveira teaches it.. cause paterna is gone right,, but i probably will end up with cafiso, and that is why im scared. i have SAC which i didnt think was really anything lat year.. but with melanie as the president ans the new reforms coming this year, it might be more of an effort than i had anticipated.. and now i got a job,., im hoping for few hours.. but want themoney... and i dont know what my course are!! should it be avn or physics?!?!?! i dont want either!! but must pick one to get my six courses.. ahhhh.. i feel so overwhelmed.. but then i thinkof sam with her crazy soccer scheduale (both at school and league) and think of her during the last month of school with her work and her soccer scheduale.. and it gives me hope.. but then again shes been doing this crazy-ness for years and im still a dribble-nosed rookie

this week has flewn by.. i had my first traiaing day on tuesday and my secod one today.. they were incredibly boring.. we learned "how to be friendly", "how to treat other with respect" and how to have a "passion to engage" we did go over the products too but not much could be done without the product and the store in front of you.. next tuesday i have to somehow make it down to eglingtion and warden by 10 for actual in store traiing..went home ont he bus today and noticed that there were three other old navy employees.. one i sat next to cause we took the bus together tuesday as well.. and when she got off her stop, there were still the other two..they started to talk to me and we found out we all got off the same stop.. one of the boys lives really close to me too..on casemore...so we walked home together until we got to the cat walk, and went our separate ways.. it was sooo nice to have someone understand the ghetto-ness of our area.. and we talked about all the fires and car accidents and how much the streets smelled while it was raining (it was spitting at the time and we knew the smell would be upon us soon) and i told him baout the dead mice i see in front of a certain house on my way tot he bus stop.. the shortness of the traiing and the people make up for the boring-ness of the training.. but it beats japan camera... only 3 or 4 more shifts to go!!! yayy!!!
i am incredibly tired and need some sleep i took a napon the couch when i got home.. jaxs is crossed with me.. cause our phones kept disconnecting (or i couldnt hear her for some reason) and i kept calling back and i think she was mad cause i was disrupting her.. and since i sensed she was mad, i got mad too..(life is very complicated with me and jaxs) all i wanted her to do was see if there were any t shirts left at american eagle in markville...i am going to buy myself a birthday present tmorrow.. and not a little birthday present.. a big expensive one.. hahahaha
i love me

yeah, how com emy blog times dont work?? its not 6:15!! ahhh.. jaxs did you mess it up the last time you were on my template?? someone fix it???

whats the deal with this pop life?
yesterday i got home at one in the morning.. not cause i was partying , or having fun.. but because i stayed at work developing pictures.. okay it wasnt all that bad cause the store was empty except for me sabrina and deidra.. and we played nsync all night and i learned all the words to "dirty pop" hahah or so i think, cause no matter how much i hear a song and think i know it, i always seem to screw it up,.. you can ask jaxs..
my sincere apologies to sam for not showing up on friday to see her and get sundaes... we were really planning to go.. but we at the last minute went to vanessa's house and stayed there the afternoon playing the "Survivor" boardgame until like 4 o'clock.. and we couldnt just leave in the middle of it.. well technically i could have cause JACQUELINE voted me out!!! so yeah unless you wanted us to come after you shift and hunt you down on your way walking back home...
im still holding your lipgloss hostage!!! *peers behind me, where i have hog-tied the pink grapefruit-flavoured lipgloss to a chair and gaged it with duct tape* we'll see eachother soon.. im off next week from wednesday on.. until the 31st
we better ALL do soemthing then!!!! *glares at everyone*

does anyone wanna come with me for a hair cut.. i wann get my hair relayered cause i just noticed it does a funny v shaped thing at the back, and the layers are all grown out and nasty.. someone please??

whoohoo
i have plans.. it feels good when you have plans.. friday: during the day, nicole, jaxs, sam, petrina, vanessa, hopefully bev and chrisitne and maybe a few others will spend a day eating and shopping.. such girlish fun!!! then in the evening a BBQ at marks..will go early to help set up.. yayy mee!!!
wont be on until sunday.... tomrrow working, friday out, saturday working.. hmm maybe ill be on saturda night..well see

Score!!! my new comments thing works!!!!
now leave coments!! everyone!!!

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Happy 17th birthday petrina!
so today was the day i quit japan camera.. i was soo scared to do it as i came into work.. but then my manager started to bitch about the two days i requested off from work next week, and i decided that now was a good time to spring it one her.. so yeah, i told her, and she seemed hurt, but got over it quickly.. i didnt give her the letter until just before she left..

then after sam dorve me to montannas to celebrate petrinas brithday! everyone was there.. okay maybe not everyone... but it was soo funny.. i dont think anyone could possibly have more fun with a few jam jars, tin cups, knives and a napkin...hahah bev.. i love bev!
jaxs where the hell were you? i tried calling you a million times.. and your phone was off.. are you dead in a ditch somewhere?

how the hell do i write a resignation letter????
why must i sugarcoat: " bye denise i hate you and this stupid store! and you can kiss my big fat ass as i walk to my new job, with my higher paycheck and closer location! so ha! try yelling at me now bitch!" ???(denise is my manager of course) but alas, i must be nice, cause one day i might need her as a reference, and im thinking that if i say the above, she might not give me one..
so here i go.. trying to write a resignation letter, even though i have no idea what im doing, and i know i will probably be laughed out of the store once i give it to her because it will not look or sound anything like one.. but im doing it... cause i must quit and i wont spend a single day more there than i have to
geez, quitting is so much trouble, no wonder people dont do it more often

wow... i cant believe christine has a thing with her dad too!! hahah we rock.. however, i unlike her, have developed a hate.. wait.. i wouldnt call it a hate.. how about a strong dislike?

aphids are easily smashable
yesterday i got off at 6 and took the bus home.. i walk out of fairview and walk down to the sheppard bus stop.. i stop at the light and look down.. my white shirt was spotted with tiny bugs everywhere.. i brush them off with a look of disgust and embarassment.. i had no idea why all these bugs chose to die on me, and no one else..

i get off the bus at my stop and walk home.. again, i look down and notice my shirt and pants are full of the little things.. its like when you walk the bugs crash into you and die!! i was beging to worry.. do i have B.O.? was it my perfume? it was totally gross.. but i was relieved this morning that it wasnt just me, there was a whole epidemic of bugs.. phew!

im going to montreal this weekend for the long holiday... be back tuesday.. but probably wont blog till wednesday.. wait, maybe if youre lucky, ill be on monday night.. ohh baby!! rowrr

BLING BLING
so this morning i wake up and watch tv and eat and stuff, you know just basically doing nothing since i dont have work till 4( which means i leave at 2:45) but then my brother gives me a message from yesterday morning(i was gone to work already when they called), it was old navy, and they wanted a final interview either today or tomrrow from 10-7.. i was like oh shit. . i have to go now before work cause tomrrrow im gone out of town...i was also like omigosh!! cause i totally was not expecting them to call.. since i thought i totally bombed my second interview.. so i run upstairs and shower and change and run out othe door.. i was totally psyching myself up for a on-on-one interview..cause it couldnt possibly be a group cause it would have had to be in a schedualed time.. so i walk in and the guy who the message said to ask for wasnt there, so i had to wait.,. that must have been the longest 10 minutes of my life.. i was going over all of my good qualities in my head and how i would go about explainging them.. the guy finally comes and pulls me to the side and says: "we would like to offer you a position at old navy" i was amazingly happy..how could he have said something which brought so much joy so nonchalantly? it took a few seconds for it to all sink in..so yeah i got my shirt, filled in my training times. and got out of there.. it felt like i was in an amazing un-popable bubble of happiness. i went to find julie at walmart to tell her and buy a new hairbrush (my old one is in two pieces.. i dont know why)

but my bubble was i guess, not so un-popable.. my dad came to pick me up from work, and i told him with this big grin on my face about my new job.. i could tell that he wasnt happy.. he asked: "so what about the library" and i said im gonna tell them i got a job at old navy!! he was not happy.. he had before told me that it would be better if i got the library job, rather than the one at old navy.. so i knew now that he wasnt happy with my choice of work.. he wouldnt tell me why,..somthing about getting more life experience at the library.. but i mean how much life expoerience would you get from shelving books??? i think a retail job would look wayy better on a resume..you could be mute and deaf to work in a library.. there is no showing of social skills...or even an understanding of anything more than how to put objects in numerical order
so eventually it turned into an arguement about whether or not i should write a resignation letter (he says yes, i say its just a stupid first job) and how im shutting doors.. when i kept on refusing to waste my time with a resignation letter.. he gave me this whole speech about how i never listened to him and how there were so many times in the past that i didnt when i should have.. and how he could never tell me to do anything, and merely just suggest things for me to do, and have me not listen ,,i told him yes, you cant tell me what to do, and you never will be able to.. yes, there were times when i should have listened to you, but because i didnt, it may have been bad, but i had a new life experience.. so therefore, it was good that i went through it..we sat in the car for the rest of the ride in silence, while i thought : FUCK.. we havent talked for years... and now that things are actually getting better.. youre making me not want to deal with you at all... really.. if this is how youre gonna be when we get along, i dont want to have anything to do with it, cause things are so much better when were ignoring eachother (well at least more peaceful)

i hate how when you feel so good about something, fathers feel like they have right to shoot you back down.

be back to blog and sign guestbooks tomorrow... im freezing down here right now..
going to montreal for the weekend maybe?

vince carter baby
i got picture of vince carter...REAL ONES... i stole them from work.. well technically they were "paper waste" and were going to be thrown out anyways..

if you guys decide to do something the weekend vanessa comes back, scheduale it for the friday!! cause im working saturday, and since im quitting, my boss wont let me change my scheduale around

TA DA
i have a guestbook now!!! sign it !!!! SIGN IT!!!

on the nugget
i was thinking the other day, while on the nugget.. that the nugget bus was sooo much a part of peoples lives in my neighbourhood.. without it, we would be stranded, or have to take three busses just to get to scarborough town... i noticed that it was weird that everyone called it THE nugget.. instead of just nugget...
example:
boy 1: "what bus do you take home?"
boy 2: "THE nugget"

people dont call brimley, THE brimley!!
boy 1: "what bus do you take home?" (he likes to ask this question)
boy 2: "THE brimley"
didnt that sound weird?

your gravol worked wonders jaxs.. but unfortunatly, it didnt help my interview..
saw matt, yoyo and mark after my interview.. they went to walmart with me to get jaxs an air freshener for her car..
its ugly jaxs.. but i want you to hang it.. or throw it somewhere so that it doesnt smell anymore.. its blue, to match your car.. and in the shape of a leaf!! hahahaha

yes, i know my blog looks ugly.. jaxs was fixing it for me, and she began to play around with it, and eventually, everything got fucked.. so i will fix it, just probably not anytime soon

i hoped you all missed me
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAXS!!!!
did you have a good day? of course you did! you were with me!. well sort of....
today i had work and jaxs came to get me.. i bought her a birthday lunch.. since we werent going out for dinner... after jaxs (who is the most wonderful person ever!) drove me to my interview at woodside library... and stayed there, so she and i could go hang out at her house after.. at 4:45 i had to leave her house for another interview at old navy... it was my second one, and it didnt go well.. it was a group interview.. me, and 8 other people.. he went around and asked us each a different question..the first one, he took notes on this sheet of paper.. and the second set, he didnt write anyhting.. which made me wonder.. so yeah i doubt they'll be calling me back.. but theres still hope in the library i guess...
last friday was the best day at work ever!!! i dont think anything can top it.. except maybe next next saturday...friday night, me and sabrina were the only two in the back the whole night.. and even in the front, the people doing the selling were all young people too.. so we turned up the music, and talked.. it was a very slow night and me and sabrina started to gossip about everyone who worked there.. (well only the adults) and about how we both have secret plans to leave... i even ate and drank while i was printing, so i didnt have to use my break.. it was wicked.. next friday night the same and next,next saturday..
i cant believe they trust us that much..yikes
yes i realize that i sound stupid. and really, its not big deal.. but now that ive been working.. every little good thing is a big deal.. cause they are so few and far between..